Monday, July 30, 2007


hmmm some how I ate 14 FP today. Not sure how it happened....I'm sure it had nothing to do with Chocolate, T-bone steak, cheese bun, chocolate and more chocolate. I need to lay low with the points tomorrow!

but boy.....did it taste gooooooood.

Hmmm Looks like I took the wrong schooling...

Which College Major Should You Be?

Your major should be Engineering. Logic is your friend. With enough work, you can find a solution to anything... Unless it involves dating or parties.
Your major should be Psychology. You enjoy understanding people, especially if it helps you get their numbers. You can save the books for grad school, right now it's all about field work.
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Weigh In Day


I'm down!!! I WI at 251.8!! I can't belive i'm so close to to the 40's! and really sorta skipped the '252's'!! It's a loss of -1.6 for a grand total, so far, 8 weeks of 13 lbs. So averaging 1.6lbs per week. I can take that. I'd like 2lbs per week, but i'll take 1.6. So this *may* be my last week at 30pts per day, then I will go down to 28!! Thats 14 less points per week!
So excited things are happening, even if it's slow and steady. I'll see if I can import my WL chart so far....

Well it didn't work...sorry!

ok off to eat some chocolate!

Sunday, July 29, 2007

jump jump jump jump

That's what my 2.5y/o has been doing for the past hour, where or where do they get this energy? If I had an eighth of it, I'd be running marathons!!!

So I did ok w/ the kisses yesterday.....ummm that brings us to today...hmmmm how do I say this...I haven't been *that* bad...there are some still left (though it is only 5:17pm) I've had 10 points so far. I have more than enough FP, but the same time I don't think I should be loading up on chocolate the night before WI. I've decided I need to have some good treats on Mon/Tues then be good the rest of the week, with just small treats as needed. This past week I did very good the first 1/2 of the week then dived in to all my unused FP. So this week I will try the opposite...

Funny/weird story....We found a contractor to finish the siding on our renovation project (from he#l). Well I was catching a different vibe off this guy, then he complemented me on my hair...hmmm weird for a the next time I saw him, again he was very chatty and again, complemented on my hair, and also invited me to go to lunch w/ him and his crew...(I was there with my dd and my g'ma!). Well he came by our house Fri. to get paid, well the conversation was fine, then he asked if I go to church, I found this weird, but said yes (I do) and then he kinda was hum & hawing and said this may sound weird...and then kinda did this weird ramble thing; that really I didn't understand much off, basically I belive he was telling me his wife left him in May and he has to pay her 1/2 a million + some of his renovation properties, I was quite confused, and he left with saying "I'll just leave that with you". WEIRD!!

Then today (sorry turning in to a long story) he's at the house finishing up today. I have a friend and her family staying out there...she asks for the key back and he goes to the truck to get it and comes back and says to my friend "That LXXX (me) she sure is a beautiful woman, I just love her hair". She knew the story before so she couldn't wait to tell me. Weird eh? I don't need to have anymore contact with him, besides him maybe calling today to tell me it's all complete...

And to note, I am very happily married, talked about my hubby on all occasions that I talked to him, put in the conversation that my hubby is 6'8", 300lbs, he's seen me with my dd....and at no time was I looking cute at all, just everyday clothes, no makeup, hair up in a pony...and I told dh all about it, and he said I should tell the guy to go jump off a building (really he said that, funny; he's so old school)
So that is my funny story...

Well time to nuke diner, chat later!

Saturday, July 28, 2007


I didn't realize I haven't posted since Wed. bad me. I've been around, but busy with Grandma and dd. It's been a pretty good week, gone by fast! Nothing too exciting to post...had a yummy diner tonight, salmon with citrus seasoning, white rice (I was craving it) and broccoli. Yum Yum! I bought some Hersey kisses today, thanks to Roni....I am trying to pace my self...well' see how tonight goes, you gals know me and chocolate!

I am not sure if I'll be down this week or not....I gained that pound that I lost earlier in the week with the scare with hopefully I'll be back in the 252's soon!!!

Ok off for some family time!
Hope everyone is having a great weekend!!!

Wednesday, July 25, 2007

I feel it, I feel it!!! and ohhh it feels gooooooood

So I am starting to 'feel it'...hmm you ask, what exactly is she feeling???? Smaller, a bit thinner thru the waist...I can tell I am losing!!! yaaaaa. It always goes off my middle first, I'm a BBG (big booty girl). So my waist/upper body always thins out first, fine by me. I can notice in my arms too...I had a jacket that in the winter was just too tight on my biceps. I wore it this past weekend, with a thin t-shirt and no problems!!! I also have a pair of linen short Capri's I bought April/Mayish (size 22 YIKES) and I wore them yesterday and realized that they are just too big to wear now, I even tryed with a belt but just look sloppy and gross. So I think I am back to a solid 20, not peeking in to the 22's like I was a few months back. So I am pumped and think I am in 'the grove'. I tryed to eat more today but still finished off the day only 1pt over daily pts. But oh well. I guess that is a good thing!

An old college friend whom I re-connected with on Facebook posted some pics today of the college I was thin/thinner back then! I am tempted to post on here, but really that was 13 years ago, so *reality check* not going to look like that again...BUT I had short sassy hair and I love it in the pic and I have been 'threatening' to chop my longer locks off...and this temps me even more. I keep telling myself to wait till at least Oct/NOv (5y anniversary+ Vegas trip) and then go to the city and do sort of a make over...I figure by then I will hopefully be down about 30-38lbs; enough to make a difference. So I will try and stick to that plan. But it's hard, some days I feel like such a fat ugly homely looking MOM.

Anyways...enough of my incoherent to bed soon since I didn't get much sleep last night...hmmmm wonder why....

Safe and Sound

So about 3:30am my hubby rolls in; safe and sound, thank goodness!!! I talked to him again at 11:22pm and they found the path and then at 12:30am he called and they figured they were about 15min from the truck. and at 12:45am they were at the truck! This was the point I stopped worring so much. It was still a 1.5 to 2h drive back home. So he/they were BEAT!!! His arms are so covered in bites it's crazy. I didn't know a person could get so many miquito bites!!! He figures they walked out about 10-15km (5-8miles).
They all (4) had to leave their quads (ATV's, 4 wheelers) out there...and who knows when they can get the unstuck...

The small amout of good news...the stress helped me loose a pound. I'm down to 252.6 this am.

Tuesday, July 24, 2007

Lost husband, Nervouse Wife

So my husband went quading today with 3 buddy's. I get a call at 10pm (1h ago) and there quads are broken down and they have to walk out. The cell phone is almost dead and the GPS batt's are low. I lose the call several times. they called another wife with the GPS quordants, and she called to give the to me. I've called the local RCMP (police) and they want me to wait for 2h to see if we hear back from them (so midnight our time). He said by there quardants they are about 3miles from a subdivistion if they keep heading south..but they don't know this, and we don't know if they are heading south.
So yes I am sick to my stomache, i've had the start of the 'nervouse poop's' and have finally stopped shaking uncontrolabley. I know they will proably be fine, but it makes me nervous. Plus my husband is an insilin dependant diabetic. Yes he has his stuff, but not sure how much, or what they have for food. Never mind that stress reeks havolk on his blood sugars, plus the amount of exercise they will have to do to get out!!!
this will be the last quadding trip for a while! Also there are tons of bears up there. They do have fire, and a knife but proably not a bunch else. None are really majorly outdoor knowlagable...

ok signing off for now, but i'm sure i'll be back before the night is thru. Sorry i'm not spell checking this either.

I'm alive, I'm alive

Not sure what happened but I've been MIA for a few days, oh wait, I know what it was; life.

So our little side trip was ok, dd didn't do so great in a hotel, we actually packed up 6:30pm sat night and drove home! Sucked up the hotel costs, but it was worth it to sleep in my own bed! and she slept great and was pretty much back on schedule. She actually slept 2 of the 2.5h trip and that was pure bliss, especially considering she doesn't travel so hot.

Eating wise I feel I did really well!!! Sat. am we had breakfast at Smitty's; I had a bagel with 1 cream cheese and it was point wise what I would normally have for breakfast, though I did feel weird only ordering that!! For lunch I did a chef salad with no egg and LF dressing on the side. The salad was pretty low and pretty easy to count. For diner we splurged and went to The Mongollie grill. Basically a do it your self stir fry place with nice abidance. The meal was soooo yummy, and you totally control what you eat, but man was it pricey!! My meal alone was $26cnd...for one meal is pricey and really what is was food wise, too pricey.
I did end up eating 2 full size choc. bars and a bag of chips on Saturday...but used a bunch of FP I not a whole lot of guilt.

Sunday was quiet, did the church thing and then enjoyed an afternoon nap... that was a treat! I made a yummy chicken curry for diner...I love curry!!

Monday was good, my g'ma arrived and I ended up being busy so I under ate by 1pt. Today is ending up the same, I am under 1pt...but not going to eat anything at 10pm. I think I will try and have a big point day tomorrow. I know my body doesn't like consistent low point days...

I did WI on Monday and I was down .2...which I am ok w/ as it's down...I think/hope this week will be a bigger will be nice to see 252! I think it will be such a treat to get in to the 40's then I will really feel like I am losing as I haven't seen that # in a while!! Today I did make a treaty desert (I don't normally do a desert) I made a packaged caramel custard, can we say YUMMMMMMMMYYYYYYY. and it was only 4pts...and that was a double serving!!

Well off to surf some more, see what people have been up too!!!

Friday, July 20, 2007

I can't think of a witty title...

So it's Friday...I've been working on the house, it's getting a bit tidier, but gosh it's so much stink'n work cleaning. and really quite pointless with a toddler in tow...My Grandma is coming to visit on Monday for 6 days. Typically someone would be excited about this...but my g'ma is different. She's pretty self that bad to say about a grandma??? and she sorta needs to be entertained. Which is fine if company comes for a day or so, I'm very happy to oblige...but a week...we'll have to see. It will be nice to have the company during the day...and I'll probably get some 'to do' lists done...

So my theory in cleaning like a mad woman is that if your house is really neat, tidy and clean the first time someone see it, that is the way they always remember it, even if every time they come after that, it's a mess. I'm not too sure how true my theory is, but I'll go with it for now.

I've been eating less treats it seems, and doing less carbs at diner...not by planning or anything, it's just working out that way. The scale is budging a bit. .2 that is nice. We'll see how the weekend goes!

So this might be it till Sunday...I still have to finish packing, straighten my hair and work on the front entry way...

Hope everyone has a wonderfully weekend!

Thursday, July 19, 2007


***Your Element Is Earth***

You excel at planning and strategizing.
You could be a champ at chess or Survivor.

Well grounded, you are able to be realistic and rationalize.
On the inside, you have a hard core. It's tough to phase you.

You are super productive, and you are able to think anything through.
Focused and super charged, your instincts are a good guide for your next step.

What's Your Element?

Wednesday, July 18, 2007

mmmm Salmon...

So tonight I broiled up a beautiful salmon fillet with citrus seasoning. It was soooo yummy. It was all I ate. ( I was doing beets too, but after 1h of cooking still not done so I said forget it). Hubby even said several times how yummy the fish was. AND I think I'm sick...I did not eat a single thing after my meal at about 6:30pm tonight. No chocolate, no fugcicles, no cookies, no double chocolate muffins..nada. Just not in the mood! So I only used 1FP today so that's great. We decided to go to 'they city' this weekend. There is a major centre about 2.5h away, and I have a training thing anyways on Sat. so we are making a weekend out of it. So....I'll need a few extra FP for the weekend. I'm not too worried. Subway and Wendy's are my friends.

Silly me

I forgot to tell you the best thing...I WI this am (I do daily ;) ) and I am 253.6!!!My lowest yet! So I am sure that my heavier WI on Monday was water I was also down yesterday too!

One of those days, but in a good way...*UPDATED*

(Just life related, not so much food...)
So the day started out quite good actually. I was fairly productive in the am...I vacuumed our bedroom, did the morning dishes, had my computer time...all before 8:45am! So I thought I should take dd to the park, but before it gets too hot. It's been pretty warm around here, about 30-34 C. so we head to the park about 10 to 9am...I was really nice, but HOT already. by the time we got back I was dripping with sweat. Attractive. I figured I got 2 AP.

So I am mopping the floor, it's about 11:30am...I am not sure when the last time I mopped was, but it was in desperate need of it that's for sure! So I try calling my friend (prefacer here...a friend and her hubby are staying in a house we are renovating and trying to sell. It's become a monkey on our back as dh just doesn't have the time to go finish it off and it's so busy around here you can't find anyone to do work...). Her husband said she can't come to the phone because she is showing the house (yaaaa!!) So she calls and the people are there and have some questions....I talk to him...he basically gave me a low ball offer (23K less than list, it's listed under 200K). So I try and nicely say no way, go back talk with your girlfriend and bring me a serious offer.
So they call back once they are back at their cousins...and offer a realistic offer. I counter and they accept! yaaa!!! So of course they are from out of town, and I knew it was best to head straight out there and right the offer, so pack up dd, get a contract from my lawyer..and off we go. So we write the deal (conditional to financing) and things are good. I think this is the first home they've bought because they were kinda unsure of I am a bit leery on that, and we'll just have to see how their financing goes...they have until July 24th. Cross your fingers for me. This would be such a burden lifted from our shoulders.

So food wise, I had a good breakfast, and thankfully had a little muffin treat mid morning, but skipped lunch as i was running back and forth. Didn't get home till 3:30. I just had a thin's...and decided to save my points to indulge during diner, as I was making my favorite!! Chicken Curry. Oh I can not tell you how yummmmmmmmmmy this stuff is! So we have Chicken Curry, cauliflower and corn on the cob. yum yum yum. I have a 2pt chocolate bar and a 2pt fudgcicle for desert and I did not use any FP!! I was craving another Fudgcicle (how do you spell this word???) around 9:30pm but I was strong.

So that was my day yesterday!!! Hope today is a bit more quite...and I can finish cleaning. I am making an attempt to get my home in fairly clean shape, and then making an honest effort to keep it that way...I may even do flylady...(anyone else follow her???)

So also I am just realizing now, that my leg/back aren't too sore today, with all my 'activity' yesterday! That is another good sign.

UPDATE: So I get a phone call this am...and the people are walking away from the deal. I am so mad I could spit. But my gut was telling me this yesterday. I am mad at myself also that I didn't get/demand a deposit upon writing the deal. Oh well learn from your mistakes I guess. Also bummed because I had a phone call this am, but don't have the # to call her back.

Monday, July 16, 2007

Finally a new week

I can't tell you how glad I am to start this new week! Though I am not starting the way I'd like to. I unfortunately have a gain not a loss to report. Bummer!! I was 255.6 this am, last WI I was 254. But I think the 254 must have been a fluke as I haven't seen it since! Yesterday I was getting close...but this am I am back up. I can chalk it up to a whole bunch of things...1) turkey bacon for diner, extra salty...made me retain...2) I *think* TMO is coming...but not sure as she was wacky last month 3)I was bad last week and I just have to face the music that I gained. Yesterday I probably ate 5-8 extra points.

I was thinking I am quite excited to get below 250 as then I will be closer to 200 than to 300!! When I thought of it that way, I was like "uhgggg, I'm closer to 300 than 200 lbs!!!" Yikes! but really, I know, I am on the fence pretty's only 5-6lbs... but we'll get there. I think I will start to feel good, and like progress is being made once I get in the 40's....

So nothing too much going on this week. Hubby is working and it's just the same old grind for me. Lots of things I *should* do...but we'll see. I am quite frustrated with my you gals know /remember about my back? At the Weightwatchen blogs I was posting how they were trying to figure out what was up with my back pain/leg pain. Well after a CT scan it shows that I have a herniated disk AND a bulging disk. Fun. So I've done some physical therapy and that has taken the edge off. It's not as painful as it was about a month ago. But if I push days, then she lets me know she's not happy. and pushing days means too much bending and or lifting.

So hmmmmm how do I care for a toddler and keep a tidy house with minimal bending and lifting...not. So it kinda sucks. Also I was pumped to start exercising and to maybe set a goal to run a marathon/half marathon next June for my 35th b-day...but that is out of the question now. They say I could start with light walking or elliptical mchn. for 15-20 MAX. and to increase oh so slowly. I am frustrated and mad at myself that I use to be able to do these things with ease...and now, for the rest of my life, it will be an issue. and if anything makes me *feel* old; it's this. I know I should be more vigilant about doing my stretching exercises, but really I am frustrated that that's all I can do, so I don't feel like doing it. I know defiantly not the right attitude but I guess I can be a bit stubborn with myself. (and who do I hurt, yup, myself).

And to go along with that, I am not feeling settled yet here at my new house (moved April 15/07). I need to establish a routine for dd and I but everyday just seems to slip by with just the basics of stuff getting done. I hate that I have such a messy house for being a SAHM to 1 child. It's pathetic really....but my reality. Luckily dh could care less, never comments on it....he's just happy to see us when he gets home.

ok sorry for a pretty ranty post...guess it's Monday morning eh? Well off to check out every one's blogs...

Sunday, July 15, 2007

I feel bad...

when I skip a day posting!! I had a friend come stay over last night, and it ended up being a busy day... we were able to slip out to a movie (Licence to Wed) last night so that was fun! I have/had been on track...until the movie...I splurged, we shared a small popcorn. I even didn't order it till after I ordered our drinks....but I still feel ok with it. We talked about it and it's all about moderation. In days past I would have ordered a jumbo popcorn AND actually feel good about my choices...along with a diet Pepsi it was a good treat.

I start my new week tomorrow and I can't WAIT to have flex points again. It's been a tough 4 days eating exactly 30points each day. I hate it. but I guess that's what happens when you blow your points in one day. *Mental note* learn from your mistakes, learn from your mistakes!!!

So this is short but it's my veg-out time dd is down for her nap...I'll be back later..I promise.

Friday, July 13, 2007

A pretty good day

So I was thinking...(on the thinking spot :) and realized something, and was excited to come post about it here...and I sat down and then I *blew it* the thing I realized...It was that today was the first day that I didn't have any treats, chocolate, cake ect. Just regular good food!! but I had brought down a mini choc. cookie, the soft kind in bags...I had 1pt I popped it in my mouth and begin to open my blog, then realized, that I just blew it!!! Silly me. Oh well. I guess it's pretty good to only have 1pt out of 30 that was a treat!! I feel pretty full at this point but it is only 6:25pm and I am a pretty good night time snacker so we'll see how the night goes!!!

So the scale has been up the past few days....I think (hope) from water retention as our bottled water ran out and I am a tap water snob....but I have been drinking yesterday and today and today peeing like a race horse all day long!! I have to lay off the drink now as it's a pet peeve of mine to have to pee in the middle of the night!!

What kind of cake are you???

I am......
You Are a Chocolate Cake

Fun, comforting, and friendly.
You are a true classic, and while you're not super cutting edge, you're high quality.
People love your company - and have even been known to get addicted to you.

Thursday, July 12, 2007

Now ......and then....

This is me yesterday at the fair (pic on top) I was feeling good about my 10ish pounds weight loss then I saw the pics we took, and I feel like a tub of lard now.....but I know baby steps baby steps. Really what do I THINK I look like? I do weigh two hundred and fifty five pounds...In comparison is a older pic of my thin I know I can do it, been there before...just got to keep at it....The pic was around when dh and I had gotten engaged... 6 years ago May...I was *just* under 200 lbs. I think floating around 195-199lbs....ahhh the good old days...

They are alllll gone...

All my FP that is!! Yesterday was a bad bad day!!! Food wise, other wise it was a pretty good day. Even thought I started out so blahhhhhhh

We went to the fair in the late morning. It was fun, dd was barely tall enough for some of the rides, so we only go about 3-4 in, but walked around and saw all the sights...the only splurge I had was my planned mini doughnuts. YUMMMMMMMM I had 7, there are 12 to a bad and dh and I split them, and he gave me an extra one, gotta love him...So this was fine as I was planning on eating them. He stopped and got us subway for lunch, only 7-8pts.

So in the afternoon I am relaxing during nap time, and I have a few (3) 2pt chocolate bars, that dh had just bought, I was trying to have control, but it's chocolate AND the box was right in front of me instead of up 2 flights of stairs in the kitchen pantry.... so ok, not too bad, defiantly dipping in to FP but that's fine, that's what they are there for!!!

So diner....we had planned company of 2 people. I was going to zip out at 4pm and grab some salmon and new potatoes and fresh veggies and do diner for 6pm (small town takes me 15min to grab grocer's ). Well 3pm we get a call from my Great Uncle and Aunt, they are in town, "how do we get to your house" Ok this is fun, haven't seen them for a while (2-3y) and was 'kinda' expecting a call, but not a 'we're here' call!! So I am not sure what their plan's about 3:45pm and I invite them for diner...then the phone rings, it's people calling to look at a house we have for sale, 30min away...they are from out of off I go (I had to not dh and dh is no salesman!!) so this puts me back in town for about 5:30pm....back up plan, pizza's in the freezer...I managed to stop and grab salad fixings and a quick deserts (fruit crumble so moderately ok pt wise).

So it turned in to one of those crazy days...I only had ONE piece of pizza, which was an eighth of the pie, typically I would have 1/2 the pie...well 1/16th of the pie is 7 pts (so X2 = 14pt)...then the dessert which I figured about 4-5 pts...well bummed that I went so over points I finished off the chocolate bars...another 4 last night, YIKES!!! Well I calculated and I ate about 57 pts yesterday...polishing off all my FP so I am just on my regular points for the next 4 days!!

Well off to tidy up...and figure out some lower point meals!! :)

Wednesday, July 11, 2007

Blah blah blah

Why do I feel so blah blah blah.....uhggg it's hard to drag my butt out of bed in the am, especially when my dd decides to get up at 6:30am!!! anything before 7am, well really 7:15am in torture for me!!

So I've been doing well OP, just plugging away and fully back OP with no that is good! We are going to the local fair today so that will be fun. I will allow myself some of those mini doughnuts but that's it. They are the only fair food I really love...

Sorry so short, must go iron my shirt!

PS thanks everybody so much for the comments, they really make my day and boost me up!!! *heart* you gals!!!!

Monday, July 9, 2007

254, 10.8, 2.16

Those are my's a good day!!!! Today, my official WI day I am at 254lbs!!!! I am under the 255 mark!!! yaaa AND that brings my total lose to 10.8lbs AND that makes my weight loss average, over the 5 weeks I've been OP to be 2.16lbs a week, which I consider great. Last time on WW it was 1.5lbs!!!

I truly can't believe what a difference 10lbs makes! Seriously I didn't think it would, especially at my weight but it does! I put on some shorts last night that I couldn't take to Cuba in Jan/07 because they were just too tight, I am noticing things are looser, even the pants I just bought a week ago Friday!! It's a nice feeling, to not just see it on the scale but to feel it in my clothes and to just feel it in my body!!!

So I am back full boar ahead today, last week after I got back I found it hard to get fully back on I ended up not counting and "trying" to make better choices, which worked sometimes and some times not...but I am motivated to stick to and get back on track today. I only have to loose 4 more pounds and I go from 30 points a day to 28 yikes!!! but it will also be a good mile stone! and I want to be out of the 30 pt category before my hubby gets there!!!

Friday, July 6, 2007

Official Weigh In...after holidays

So I was 256.4lbs today, down .2lbs after a 9 day holiday to my home town, and being off program for about 8 of those days. I am quite pleased! Even to maintain I would have been happy, frankly the way I ate, I would have accepted a 1-2 lbs gain...but I lost!! Some of the treats I enjoyed, (just to re-live the yummy'ness: chocolate; about 3 bars worth, hamburger (2) and fries, and Italian meal out including calamari appetizer (not deep fryed), a pasta dish with shrimp and scampi (marinara sauce) ending the meal with my fav....creme brulee..., pop, a jr. blizzard, croissant, a yummy Greek meal, hot dog, potato salad, choc. cake....mmmmm just to name a few!

So back on track today...I had a mango for breakfast, mainly because we have no food. I need to get some bulk in me, as I am quite hungry and I don't wan to get off course because of a little hunger...

Thursday, July 5, 2007

I'm baaaaack....

and so glad to be back! Let me tell you, I don't know if it's because of this extra weight or what, but in this heat (29-31C or 85-88F) I get soooo cranky and my patience is extremely low!! I could not wait to get home to my a/c (majority of homes around here, including my Mom's do not have a/c). I just felt so cranky and I was just DONE with being away....So now I am sitting comfortably here, in my nice (but messy) a/c house, in very comfortable moo-moo. lol!!

So I decided to hope on the scale tonight, just to try and get an idea where I *might* be. When I left, at night I was weighing 259.8-260 if I recall right, well tonight, after not being OP for 10 days, not drinking a glass of water in about 2 days...and being very hot...I was 257.4!!! So I will be curious what I am in the am...I could possibly be under 255....and especially after I start up w/ the water again! I can't wait to get back OP, I feel so much more in control. and ya I still lost weight off program and eating very naughty things, but i know it would be a matter of days before the weight would be back up to 265 though it seems "oh I can eat anything I want now and still lose" I know that is very far from the truth!

I found I made bad choices just some of the time and good and better ones other times, it wasn't a total off program free for all. Even today, driving back, with a VERY irritable toddler, screaming for food, me not wanting to step out of my vehicle till I was on home soil, we did DQ drive thru (that or A&W) she got her food and I got a med root beer and a med fries....I know doesn't seem that good, but A) it was Dairy Queen I could have gotten an extra large cookie dough blizzard to ease my stress B) I could have gotten a burger to go with my frys...but all I wanted was a pick-me up (caffeine and sugar) and a small 'treat' the fries....

But enough talk about blizzards and frys...back OP tomorrow. I also have to grocery's shop as we have NO food, no milk, no bread nothing!!! does dh not eat when I am not here??? (I KNOW he doesn't clean when I am away, that is clear by the mess of the house, grrrrr)

So off to relax on the couch, drink my water and look forward to WI tomorrow am.....

See ya'all back on a day to day basis now....