Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Reflecting on My Last Year

So since it's my one year anniversary from starting WW last June. I remember feeling so fat (as much as I hate that word) last year as we were at the in laws for a mini family reunion and we did pics. Well when I saw the pics that night...uhhhggg. I seriously was disgusted. I knew my weight was scary close to 265... and realizing I was defiantly closer to 300 than to 200 made me get my butt in gear. Of course I'm no where near where I thought I'd be, heck I could have been at goal if it wasn't such a busy/changing year. But really to be down anything from last year is great, and I just need to stick with it. It's not like I'm heavier than I was last year! I know I had *really* wanted to run a marathon or some race at the least for my 35th b-day. But being diagnosed (after severe back pain) with 2 herniated disks... I new that dream was quickly fading. I've now set a goal to run a marathon by my 40th (in 5 years) I have always wanted to do this and I know I will. But I have to realize being where I am right now, it's not a super fast attainable goal. In 5 years all my kids should be in school and with in 2years they'll start going so I'll (hopefully) regain some personal time. That's really my main goal. Of course to be skinny, look hot and wear what ever I want is up there too.

Really when I look back at the challenges I've had this past year I feel pretty good about any loss and sustained loss! Back problems,selling a 2nd property, toddler adoption, pins and needles about possible 3rd adoption, infant adoption, LACK OF SLEEP, 3 kids 3 and under (2 home with in 6m of each other), a hubby who works alot... ahhh I could go on and on... but that's life eh? We can't and won't ever have just a perfect time conducive to weight loss where everything is peachy keen and roses. There will always be something going on, challenging us and making us think "i deserve a treat". There's aways a reason to not make right choices, but there also is always reasons too make healthy choices. We just have to focus on the right reasons.

So a current goal of mine is to be wedding weight by my 6y anniversary (Nov. 1st) wedding weight was 195lbs. Really I look at my photos and think dam, if I could look like that again I'd be loving it! (but goal really is 174 (healthy BMI). I just also found out that my grandma is getting married again (2nd) and it's early Sept. so of course that is motivation through out the summer... I like have a 2-3m event/goal thing to look forward to. Better than just always looking long long term. If I do the math, there isn't any reason not to be at goal for the new year...but I'm not officially setting that goal yet...

Ok so this has been sort of a long winded post... off to be a Mom...

2 comments:

Superjayman's Battle of the Bulge said...

Setting mini goals is a good thing...some sort of motivation when the weight comes off so slowly. Why is that----so easy to put on, yet so hard to get off. Anyway, you have accomplished tons this past WW year. With all the stress you have endured it's amazing that you didn't turn to food as much as you would have i the past and actually lost weight!!! A BIG WTG GIRL!!!!

Steph said...

Girl - over the course of the last year, you HAVE run a marathon! You have gone through so much and had some great victories - be proud of that!

Glad that you have a goal and I think you can totally do it~! I'm cheering for you!