So I am still here, we were out of town till later last night...I am back on the wagon today, though I haven't journals yet today...I got on the scale and it wasn't too scary, sitting around 250-249.4 so I a pleased with that after a few days of off program. So I am sure after a few days back OP and drinking water again I will be where I should be.
So I need to vent, I feel like there is so much going on in my personal life I am going to burst. If it isn't one thing, it's another...
We went on a visit to look at possibly adopting our dd 1/2 sister (we adopted dd as a newborn). She is 19m old and I am scared at the thought of the challenges of bringing a toddler in to a home with an existing toddler (they are 11m 3w apart). I wonder how my dd will do, I worry about attachment with the new one...and just all of a sudden being a family of 4! Some tuff life decisions we've been contiplating the past couple weeks. We have decided to move forward with this adoption.
So I get home last night and there is an email from my Dad (step) basically giving me the guilty treatment because my last visit down he felt I didn't make an effort to talk to him (we did diner). I guess he wanted to talk about his will. Basically he threatened to leave me zero if I continue to "ignore" him. (I was the one to email him last week after not hearing from him in forever, and I mostly initiate the calling). He also does not want to leave me money for fear of me tithing some of it. He knows we pay tithing and strongly does not want any monies to go to "that church". He ends with a "you can tell I was really disappointed". I emailed him back and said to me it's not about the $$, I could care less. I care that you don't seem to be involved in mine and his gd life. He's more concerned he didn't get to talk to me about $$ than being able to spend much time with his gd. He's always been a bit manipulative, and I find it so hard to 'stand up' to him. Uhhhhg I hate dealing with crap like this. I'm surprised that I haven't gained 10lbs in stress eating.
And on a good note, we FINALLY have a firm sale on our renovation property. It's been such a stress having it and dealing with it. But we should close on Sept. 14th so I am sooo excited about this. Plus we are having a fence built as we speak so I can actually go outside with my dd and not be scared of her running away!!
So I am here, back, and back on track. I was hoping to be in the 30's for this wedding in 2 weeks, but I'll be happy if I can be about 245, another 5lbs will still make a difference.
Now off to check up on everybody else. Thanks for listing, sorry for venting!