I Caved

....that's all I have to say. Sorry Tina, couldn't hold out...though your comments did slow me down by about 45min....

My mind is else where....

So I am down here on the computure when i'd rather be upstairs making chocolate chip cookies and eating all the dough. I am just CRAVING it! It's all i've thought about since i've come home from church. I am trying to be strong, but the flesh is weak, so very week. I am wishing af would just hurry up and come so I can be done with the cravings that hit me and pull me in to the gutters of diet h*ll.

Big Mistake

So I made a mistake today. I thought I was being good, I had good intentions, and thought I was taking the high road. Let me begin by I love to bake, really love it. It is a bit more challanging with 2 toddlers that are right in there helping away. But I still love it. I also havent' baked since my Christmas baking. I thought hmm cookies, mmm to hard to resist, all that dough and then even if I get some made, they'll be gone soon. So hmmm what can I bake. Bread. Bread would be a good thing to bake. AHHHHH NOT. You try resisting warm, fresh out of the oven bread, with the butter only 2 ft away. The flesh is weak. Very week. I have no more Flex points left now, and to be honest, I probably went over by 3-5. I didn't even eat my chicken as I had devoured so much soft goodness.

oh well. Guess I just need to put my baking gloves up for a while.

(ps. My spell check is not working, sorry for the errors. I hate spelling)

Ahhhhh nothing like getting back to your routin

So I realized this past week (my week of sickness) how attached I got to working out. Even though I was still dropping weight (even though I wasn't working out) I was dissablingted I couldn't work out. I felt like I was loosing all that I had worked for the past month an a half. I craved going to the gym, but I just had no energy. Today we finally went. Don't get me wrong, I still feel like crap, and have to blow my nose every ten minites and also cough up half a lung a day. But we went! I just did 45min of moderate to easy riding on the bike. I didn't want to kill my self, and it has been a whole week since my last work out so didn't want to shock my body. But sick and all it still felt really wonderful to get a sweat on!

I realized that I am confortably in the 30's now. With scale readings day and night in the 30's. That's huge!! It happened kinda fast, and I'm not sure when, but all I know is TWENTY'S HERE I COME!!! I figure that I can get to goal by my anniversary; Nov 1st 2008, but will give my self till Christmas (who's kidding who, till Dec. 1st then HOLD). But to realize that I can do it this year is a great feeling!

I think I want to take some more pictures. I did that online thing where you send in a before pic of you and they send you an after pic back. I wasn't too impressed with the after. They didn't get my body shape right at all (i'm a pear all the way and they 'aftered' me as an apple; these thunder thights ain't going nowhere, even after I drop 90 lbs)

Peace out, the girls are awake....

Thirty

Well folks I am down 30 lbs today. Yup. I can hardly belive it my self. This since my 'official' start begining of June 2007, with a hiatus from Sept. to Jan 1st. This is 14.4 lbs since Jan 1st 2008 as well. Thought I am sick and hope I don't put the weight back on, i'm still eating my points, but just have not gotten back to the gym. I am going today, mostly to let the girls have time away from their grumpy Mom, I may just do the recumberant (sp?) bike just take it very easy.

Oh and happy ~*..~* Heart Day *~..*~

The Good News + The Bad News

The bad news, i've been away since Thurs and stopped tracking as it was just too busy and cayotic (bad excuse I know) Eatting at someone elses house, who is a good cook, managing 2 busy toddlers, running here there and everywhere and a spur of the moment date night w/ hubby = bad news.

Good news? I lost 2.6 lbs.(238.6 to 236.0) How the HECK does that happen? I mean seriously? I didn't work out at all, ate moderatly bad, didn't track or even attempt to, and I lose some seriouse weight in 5 days? hmmmm. Plus it's the week before af, so if anything I should be retaining...weird.

I can draw 1 conclustion (and I'd like to hear your thoughts too) that maybe i'm just not eating enough while i'm at home on my 'regular' routin. (working out like a made woman + eating all AP's (at least 4/day) and eating about 10-15 FP total through out the week). I am not feeling 100% so it will be a day or 2 before I get back to the gym, which I hate the thought of (not going) as it will end up being a week since I went.

Anyways, I am tired and need to go curl up the couch.

WI day today

So I am slipping on my blogging. But not on my WW journey, so don't worry (ha not that anyone would). I'm not dropping as fast as when I started, but I think that is pretty universal. I WI at 239.0 today, which from last week I belive is a .6 loss, but now just updating my 'stats' and 'daily WI' and I am the exact same as I was 11 days ago; which is kinda frusterating. In these past 11 days I have dipped as low as 237 on the scales but then I seem to bounce up a bit. I have been exersizing like mad still. Today I did 30min on the bike at a level 10 and then on to the treadmil for 20 min, 12 of which I ran STRAIGHT no breaks. I figure that in it's self if HUGE! I mean when I started in Jan, I was doing walk 1min/run 1min, and struggled with that. I couldn't even do 18min of it, I had to throw a couple 2min walks in there. So I feel really good about that. I think I might start playing around with my points, see if that's where I am stuck a bit. I eat all my AP's ever day and the past 3 weeks I only ate 10-16 of my Flex points. I am going away this weekend so I am pretty sure I will eat all 35 this week, and have 4 days in a row of no exersize, which scares me. (Haven't gone 2 days in a row with out working out). I have started light weight training so maybe I am building a bit of muscle, which we all know weighs more than fat. Really I am not too worried. I KNOW I am doing everything right. It will work out. and for me to say that and belive that, THAT is huge!

Tomorrow is my daughters 3rd b-day. I really can't belive it. Where did the time go. I was going thru some of her baby clothes and was reminsing, and I can't belive she was sooo tiny. Ahhhhh.

ok off to watch my taped AI.

(spell check wouldn't work, so now everyone knows what a bad speller I am)