I have nothing to lose

One Week In...

2011-01-04T15:44:00.002-07:00

and down 5lbs.. 220 this morning.. whoot. (just one whoot, don't want to get too carried away!)

I think I am going to give Atikins a shot. Have never tried it, gotta try all the "diets" out there ya know! I'll still track calories on spark people, as I think I could very easily go overboard just eating meat and butter, lol!

I'll keep ya posted.. I know you'll be on the edge of your seats...

225

2010-12-28T08:56:00.003-07:00

So weighed in today, 225. Not proud or happy about it, but it is what it is. I've gained 17lbs since early September. I could give you lots of excuses, but bottom line. I gained because I ate. ALOT. EVERYTHING.

What we need to focus on now is getting back on track, and finding a way to make it a life style and something I can do long term. I can't be "on" and "off" it's not healthy and not productive.

Today is a new day...

*this post was made on Dec 28th, but won't post from my laptop, so just getting around to posting now from my desktop.. I'm down to 220-221 this morning...*

I'm fat...

2010-11-27T11:06:00.002-07:00

and getting fatter by the day. This is so stupid. How can I be so on/good about weight loss, then be so off/bad with it. Stupid stupid stupid.

Track... where's the Track?

2010-10-17T20:50:00.002-06:00

'cause I gotta get back on it! Between Thanksgiving (2 huge meals) and then girls trip to the States and eating out alot, and enjoying yummy yummy Mexican food, I"m sure I've gained like 10lbs. I don't even want to get on the scale for 2 weeks, just get the weight down first. But who are we kidding. I'll probably get on it Tuesday morning.

Anyways I am feeling pretty full/disgusting/gluttonist (word?) pretty much disgusting so I know i'm ready to get back to a much healthier lifestyle. This will include clean eating, exercising and a positive attitude!

I have a goal of about 15-25lbs I'd like to lose by March 2011 (because i'm going to Hawaii!!!)

60

2010-09-09T11:18:00.002-06:00

FINALLY hit the 60lbs lost mark. Those dang 2lbs have been hanging around for a month (read I have not lost anything in a month). So I am now 208, which means soo close to being in "one-der-land" (as copied from one of my fav. weight loss bloggers) and 13lbs from my 'wedding weight'. I plan to get my body fat tested next time I go home (read; get to the big city). Last time I was at 28% so curious what I'm at now, I still have lots of "fat on me" lol.

Time to Check In

2010-08-26T14:02:00.003-06:00

So the summer is winding down, and I guess i've been slacking on the posting! Glad to say that I have not let up on my fitness/health goals. I've had a few week moments but I embarrassed them and took them as a well deserved break.

I'm at 210 right now, and have been for 2 weeks. I reeeeeally want to break the 210, 208 would bring me to 60lbs lost, and then of course to break the 200's!!! Which really is only 10 (11) lbs away.. I"m hoping to reach this by Canadian thanksgiving (Oct 11th).

I've been hitting the gym 4-6X a week, alternating between lower and upper body weight routines and cardio, alternating between HITT and long slow runs. I'm starting to see some definition in my arms, but it's very slight, still lots of fat there. I'm going to get hubby to do picks on sat. I haven't done in a long time... and I know it's important, I just to get around to doing it!

Some NSV (non-scale victories) i've had this summer:

I have to do my ipod band up tighter these days
jeans I bought a month ago (size 16) which were very snug, now go on with ease
I shop in regular size stores now
I have a HUGE piles of clothes I need to drop off to charity
I didn't have to wiggle in to the plastic outside chairs at my MIL's this summer (it was a tight fit last summer)
my 'travel' wedding band (had to stop wearing my regular set in Jan) is now getting loose, soon I won't have any rings to wear :( will get them all sized when i'm at goal)
I'm almost 100lbs lighter than my husband (who's 6'8" 305lbs) we've been as close as 30lbs apart before

Pictures.,.

2010-08-06T14:54:00.005-06:00

This is at Christmas time.. around 250-255ish

This is mid-May.. about 230lbs back shot... (picture complements of my daughter!!)

This is end of July, just to compair the 2 'butt' shots (me in jeans and white t-shirt with butt to the camera) about 215lbs

This is end of July at about 215lbs

Obese No More

2010-07-11T08:14:00.002-06:00

I am ECSTATIC to post that I am no longer obese, according to BMI calculators ever where. This morning I weighed in at 215 (also note, a new low for me!!) and this puts me at 29.99 BMI which means I'm out of the 30's which means I'm not considered obese anymore! Though I know those charts are just an estimate, and don't take in to account lean body mass ect. It's still nice to be out of that range!

Another victory...I am now 97.5kg's, so I am out of the triple digit's FOREVER in kilograms, whoooo hooooo.

So I've been working out really hard the last little while, thurs I was starting to feel iffy, woke up achy ect but still plugged on.. Friday I was not well. Headache, achy all over, very irritable. I came to the conclusion that i've been over training. My weight was not shifting so i'd work out harder ect. I was doing my best to keep my calories up, but had a few days of low calories (1300 range) so that coupled with hard workouts = feeling really sick. I really do equate it to over training because I never got sick/flu/poops ect. I'm still not feeling 100% but about 90% today. I have now not worked out for 3 days and have dropped 4lbs, so that also tells me my body needed a break!

I'm going to switch up my routine. Cutting out some cardio and start doing a weight/body weight exercises 3x a week and the other 2 days will be cardio, one day i'll do HITT the other i'll do a long slow run. I'll stick with this for about 6 weeks, the rest of the summer. I'm hoping to be around 203-207 range come labor day weekend. My challenges will be when I go to my inlaws the last week of July, but i'll just do my best to pack healthy, clean foods. We will have our trailer so that will help to have my own mini kitchen!

oh and I did buy a bikini for some body shots, as I know it's important to document, and I think better in a bikini than my full piece, BUT i never plan to wear it out in public. It's an XL and fits right now, but bulges out some fat in places still :) this next week it's my goal to get hubby to take pictures so I can post some progress pics!

so to recap:
Start weight: 268
Current weight:215
Total lost:53lbs

Start BMI: 37.4
Current BMI: 29.99

Start KG's: 121.5kg
current KG's: 97.5kg

50lbs lost, and no plans to find them, EVER!

2010-07-01T09:38:00.002-06:00

So I am pretty sure I hit my 50lbs mark this morning.. I say pretty sure because my scale jumps all over the place, drives me nuts! but I'll go with it.
So this is the lowest i've weighed in probably 7years. and the first time i've hit the 50lb mark, so kinda excited! Next big # is 214 'cause then i'm out of the stupid 'obese' range for BMI, even thought I know i should not put any clout in BMI's but it still bugs me.

My hubby is away right now with the kids, and i'm enjoying a much needed break. Though I do have some guilt/hesitation with it, but still very much enjoying it. I did a really great work out yesterday, but also learned a lesson. I NEED to be drinking more water. My hammies ceased up on me and almost made me fall to the ground. I drank about 1/2 my water bottle and they got better. I had not drank any water that morning and did a hard cardio work out just prior. So lesson learned.

I'm almost finding it hard to eat all my calories and drink all my water (min 2L a day) I don't know how people are hungry if they are eating nutrient rich foods and drinking all the water they should. I feel like I am constantly full and have to force my self to eat and drink, lol!

I bought a new work out outfit yesterday. A yellow Adidas dry t-shirt (bright yellow!) and some black stretchy Capri's. I am feeling more confident to wear fitted stuff to the gym and frankly my old work out shorts were too big, starting to look sloppy! I also bought a new sports bra as the girls were getting away from me during working out. It's the only time in my life I feel it a pain to be large busted (36D) so today they are double bagged, lol. A under wire sports bra + a tank style sports bra. We'll see if they can calm down a bit today :)

Vo2 Max, RMR, Body Fat %

2010-06-26T08:22:00.002-06:00

So I bit the bullet and while I was visiting my Mom and family in the big city I got my Vo2 Max tested as well at RMR (resting metabolism rate) and my body fat percentage done.
The Vo2 Max gives me personalized training zones for aerobic and anaerobic zones. For my aerobic I train 140-156 bpm (beats per minute). They also gave me the speeds on the treadmill to exercise at to achieve this. My anaerobic zone is 170 to 183 (183 being my maximum heart rate). I love it. It gives me much better direction to train at and I feel like I'm training with a purpose rather than just doing what ever. I also got an estimated Vo2max as I did not reach it. The test is performed with a scuba type mouth piece and your nose pinched off so you have to breath through your mouth and thru a tube that has a one way check valve. So when you are running really hard that very small delay in the valve made me closaphobic (SP?) a bit and I just found it really hard/ strange to breath thru this scuba type mouth piece. So needless to say I finished kinda abruptly and didn't do as well as I had hoped. I finished at 8min 30 sec. with a Vo2max estimated at 28. something. I think that falls in to the poor rating. but what ever, mostly did the test to get me heart rate zones! I'll do better next time!

Next was the RMR, this test told me exactly how many calories my body burns at rest, 1600. Instead of using the Internet to estimate it according to my height and weight (which ranged from 1780 to 1850) this test told me exactly what mine is. So I take my rate, 1600 and multiply by my activity level and then minus 500 calories for weight loss. So I am now aiming to eat between 1700-1800 calories a day.

Finally was the body fat percentage. Mine is 28% the range for women is 20% to 33% so I am happy where I fall (better than BMI which tells me I'm still obese at 30points). The test was taken over 17 sites and compiled over 10 of them. My lean body mass (everything except fat) was 162lbs and that means I have about 58lbs of fat on me. I have a goal of about 20% body fat which is aprox. 195lbs if I don't loose any lean mass. So that made me VERY HAPPY as I originally though I needed to get down to 170ish but that is impossible with a lean body mass of 162 lbs. So I only have about 25lbs left to go!!!

45

2010-06-12T08:10:00.001-06:00

45 pounds down...

Sweat Stains

2010-06-10T14:31:00.002-06:00

Ok. Vent.

Why, when I sweat, does it look like I've totally peed myself. I know I've mentioned this before, but it still really bugs me! Every time I'm done working out, I look down, huge wet spot all around my va-ja-ja region. Doesn't matter if I'm on the treadmill, eliptial, bike, track. Always big pee sweat stain.

It's gross and not very lady like.

A few NSV

2010-06-09T19:25:00.003-06:00

So last week I went to our local fabric store, which is right beside this clothing store that I've never been in before. Never been in because for the past 8 years I've shopped exclusively at plus size stores (well some tops at Old Navy) so I peek in and think "oh.. there are some cute things in here.." so I go poke around and get to shopping. So I find the discount rack and try on some pants and find a pair that I quite liked, size 16.. and you know what it took like a day or two to realize. I just bought pants at A REGULAR SIZE STORE.

HELLO PEOPLE

this is huge!!

I'm excited to wear them Friday for our girls night out. I'll be sure to take some pics :)

So..

2010-06-06T15:04:00.002-06:00

been a bit frusterated as I didn't lose this week and may have but a pound on actually. In my mind i've been eating great and doing 'everything right'. So i've decided to go back to sparkpeople and continue to count calories, while eating clean. Just to make sure i'm hitting all my *markers*. So just for fun I started entering calories today. And I know I splurged a bit, but when I entered my caloires, I ate 1300 at lunch. hmmm that could be a very good reason, that my perseption of how much i'm eatting has gotten a bit out of wack. So sounds like it's a good idea for me to get back on the calorie counting wagon!

Another dilema of mine, my girls (4+5) are now done preschool for the year. I was using the mornings when they were in preschool (3 mornings a week, 9:15am-11:15am) to hit the gym, then I only had to put 2 kids in child minding. Well now I need to put all 3 in everytime I want to go to the gym, which costs me $9 everytime I go!! ($3/h x 3kids) never mind my membership on top of that. So for now i'll plan to go mon,wed,fri. and hope to squeeze in other work outs if hubby gets home from work early or just doing interval training at home.

So today at Church I got a few people commenting on my weight loss. After 7months and 42lbs it's about time, lol. It just goes to show it's a slow process, but so nice that my efforts are starting to show now. Made me happy :)

Survived

2010-06-03T07:32:00.002-06:00

Well I have officially survived another year... celebrated my "late 30's b-day yesterday" uhg. My goal is to be a very fit, hott 40 year old. I still have 3 years, but it's probably gonna take all that time to get there :)

So did I cheat on my birthday you bet I DIDN'T. The family went to Dairy Queen for dessert, and I brought a bowl of cherries from home. and you know what? I didn't even miss having ice cream/chocolate, not one little bit. I had lobster for dinner..yummmmmmm I guess the cheat I had for the day was the butter I dipped my lobster in, but I still consider it clean, just not a healthy daily choice.

I also went for a massage and peddy yesterday. The masseuse really worked me over, I actually feel sore today. I even got a work out in yesterday too.

So my weight is still flexing around 226 to 228. I have had 2 days of not the best water drinking, do weights, snacking at night (on fruit) finishing my cycle.. so all these add up to some expected fluctuating in my number, so I'm not so concerned.

40.2lbs

2010-05-26T09:03:00.002-06:00

Finally hit the 40 mark!! Whoot Whoot. I was 227.8lbs this morning, so with a starting weight of 268, that's a 40.2lb loss so far. Can I get a "Whoot Whoot" with a raise the roof?

Since Monday I have cut out fruit and sweeteners (honey agave ect) and am seeing great results, even considering it's t-minus 1 day till TOM.

32.8lbs to go till I get to my wedding weight of 195lbs. Then we'll go from there :)

Vegas

2010-05-24T10:09:00.002-06:00

So found out that a goal trip I was aiming for (end of Nov to black fri shopping in Great Falls MT.) has been changed to a Vegas trip in Sept/Oct!! I'm quite excited but now I got to kick it in to high gear. My goal was to be 195lbs for this trip and then to SHOP SHOP SHOP for a whole new wardrobe. But now 'cause things have been moved up 2months I really got to kick it in to gear. I think it's doable, maybe more a 199 but it means no slacking off time.

The trip is with my mother in law and my 3 sister in laws. Last year they went to Great Falls and saw a play and did some shopping. My hubby couldn't get the time off for me to go, so this year for sure! I think it will be such a blast! and hopefully Vegas is still HOT HOT HOT by then.

I did really well those 2 weeks I was doing my yeast detox so I am reverting mostly back to that eating for the next week.

So no:

fruit
natural sweeteners (honey, agave)
butter (my big weekness)

not alot of no's but i'm still eating very 'clean' so not alot I can take out. So I will be eating lots of veggies, lean meats, brown rice, coconut oil, olive oil, beans, fish ect.

I am sooo close (well 10lbs) from being where I was when I 'dieted' before and I so want to surpass there, all this work/loosing right now feels like "been there, done that" as I"ve seen all these #'s before (3 years ago) and it's more frustration that I let myself gain it all back (and then some). So once I hit the teen's (217 to be exact) I will be in 'new territory'. Also then I will be sooo close to getting out of OBESE and in to OVERWEIGHT which will be a huge mental milestone!! (214 is that magic #)

Fridge

2010-05-22T13:40:00.002-06:00

So I decided to take a pic of my fridge for you all. I know weird, but hey I was bored. I thought a fridge gives a good snap-shot of life at that person's house.

So some key notes:

you'll find my hubby's diabetic meds. he's type one so we have to deal with that. Which really isn't a big deal. but in the back of my mind it scares me that our time may be shortened because of this disease.

Left overs from last night. I made 2 meals. One for the fam. one for me. They had noodles with homemade cheese sauce, veggies and ham. Me, I had homemade butternut squash soup. One of my faves!!

A salad for a BBQ we are going to tonight. I made a 'clean' greek salad with fresh oregano from my garden!! (I'm quite pumped about this). I am so excited I don't have to cook dinner tonight!

My homemade yogurt which I love love love. It is so easy, CRAZY easy and give me such satisfaction to make my own. + I save so much $$. (.78cents compared to $2.89)

Tiny mozzarella balls. They are b.. .something, I made a tomato, fresh basil, olive oil, mozz. cheese salad for lunch today, yum!!!

Cravings

2010-05-19T11:57:00.002-06:00

So last night I was realllly craving McDonalds for supper. Don't know why, part because I was pretty tired from gardening, and just 'done' with cooking. Luckily the husband whipped out the cereal for the kids before I could tell him of my craving (cerel is a go to in our house for day's we don't want to cook ect) so I just had some homemade yogurt, granola and a mango. It was quite yummy. I was snacky all night and ended up having a bowl of air popped popcorn with about 2 tablespoons of butter on it. Not horrible, but not the best.

But... I was so glad I did not give in to my urges, as this morning I was 229.8... I am out of the 230's!!! i've been retaining water because of the heat here (30C) and pms so was very surprised to see it. But it gave me the umph to stay on track with my eating. I bought some cherries today so looking forward to that for my snack today.

I haven't been to the gym as much lately but been busy with cleaning and gardening, and just being more busy that I usually would be at home so it kinda makes up for it. I also believe in taking little breaks.

SEVEN

2010-05-05T08:58:00.005-06:00

7lbs in 2 weeks... I am beyond excited!!!!! I finally decided to weigh my self this morning, after getting hubby to hide the scale for 30 days, but after 2 weeks I decided I needed to 'check in' and am soooo happy to see things are working. It gives me a new boost to keep going.
So what am I doing you ask?

1) Eating Clean. you can google this but basically not eating processed foods, white flour, SUGAR, trans + sat. fats. Eating good food in it's natural state.

2)Yeast Cleanse. taking herbal supplements and staying away from all yeast made/producing foods ie. bread, cheese, soy sauce, fruit, sugar, mushrooms...

3)Drinking my water

4)Exercising. aprox 4-5X a week cardio type stuff for 40-50min. I really like doing Tabata with my new gymboss.

So that's the scoop. I also want to note that I purposely put exercise last. In reading The Eating Clean Book, I've learned that diet is 80% of the weight loss equation, 10% is genetics and 10% is exercise. It makes sense to me. Really it's alot easier to eat 500 less calories a day (skip the muffin and juice) than it is to burn 500 calories. Well in my case it is. We're all different.
So i've decided I needed to be more vigilant about my diet, and not stress about the exercise as much. I have always really enjoyed exercise so it has never been a big deal to get to the gym. But now it's that much more enjoyable because I don't "have" to do it.
So that's what's working for me right now. Today is actually my last day of the yeast cleanse to starting tomorrow I will add fruit (2-3 servings) in to my menu. Yum!!

OH and how could I forget.. i'm HALF WAY to goal!!!

Day 13 of 30

2010-05-03T15:14:00.003-06:00

and only 2 more days of my 'yeast detox' so then I can add fruit back in to my diet. I'm really starting to miss it!! Hubby made the kids Mac+Cheese today for lunch and I was tempted, it smelt quite yummy. I have found if I am starving I am more likely to cheat ( but I have NOT cheated at all!). I think I am going to weight in on wed. Originally I wasn't going to weight till the 30 days but I now decided I need a 1/2 way check in...so if things aren't moving working I can re-evaluate and not loose a whole month. + it will be 2 days after TOM and that is usually when I am pretty 'lite'.
I have not been tracking my calories.. I figure i'm pretty safe with how i'm eating but another reason I need to check in with the scale, to see if I need to get back to counting calories.

Did I check back in after my first couple work outs with my Gymboss? Can't recall, but I do want to say I LOVE it! Friday I just worked out at home, I did the bike 4min of 10rest/20hard second intervals, then did some squat/jumping jack intervals and some modified mountain climber and wall push up intervals, all in all about 30min that felt like 10min, lots of sweat and a feeling of accomplishment!!

During it I had the thought that I should be making a "true" mom work out video. I was using my bike beside our spare bed piled to the roof with clean clothes, did jumping jacks in the toy area, dodging lego bits on the floor, mountain climbers on the stair with my 2 year old crawling all around me and the stairs, trying to mimic me, and push ups on the wall, straddling a garbage bag of hand me downs yet to be sorted. A TRUE stay at home mom work out if I do say so my self!

Measurments -1 Month

2010-04-27T08:37:00.002-06:00

Bust- no change
Waist- down 1"
hips- down 1.25"
thigh- down 1"
bicep- down 1"

Wow! I'm very happy with the results. I kind of find it intriguing that I am loosing so 'evenly' lol. Does this happen with everyone? hmmmm

Well off to the gym, my gymboss timer finally arrived yesterday and I am quite excited to try it. You can set 2 times, example. Run 1min *beep* walk 2min *beep* run 1min. ext. or for doing Tabata training where you go hard and do as many reps of an exercise for 20 sec. and rest for 10 sec. and do this for 8 intervals = a crazy good 4min work out!! I'll post how it goes!

Day 6 of 30

2010-04-26T15:16:00.002-06:00

So just plugging along here on my clean eating. It really is going quite well. No major cravings.. yet.. it's a bit harder because I am doing a yeast cleanse as well, so basicly I am eating, veggies, meat, plain yogurt, grains, rice noodles, rice. I made an amazing risoto...yummmm it was so good, it was with scallops.. yum, yum, YUM. I think I will be making lots of risoto dishes.

Still working out too, today I did 30min on the treadmill (360cal)walking at 6 incline and 3mph. Then did 17min on the eliptical for another 200cal. ( I brought a clean DRY pair of pants to change into after before picking up my daughter)

Did I mention that I hid the scale for 30 days? I would weight myslef 2-3x a day and was starting to feel that my success was based on the # and also frusterated at how much it shifted (due to cycle, salt ect). So for the 30 days of clean eating, I will not be weighting myself..so far that has been the harder part of this (than not eating crap!)Hubby took my measurements about 2 weeks ago so I think I will have him do them again today/tommorow to see what the change is, and will post it here!

Nothing like...

2010-04-22T11:34:00.002-06:00

picking up your daughter from pre-school, and we you get home your husband points out your HUGE sweat stain on your crotch that looks like you totally peeed your self. The joys of working out.

Oh and by the way yesterday I started a 30 day challenge for myself. 30 days of "Clean Eating" I totally love the concept of cleaning eating. The first 14 days i am also doing a Yeast cleanse as well. I've had a problem with yeast for a year or 2 and am finally brave enough to do something about it (besides masking it with antibiotics). So no fruit either for 14 days. That will be a challenge. I know i'll go thru sugar/sweetness withdrawals, and I hope for my husbands sake, it's not too ugly!!

Things Seem to Be Working...

2010-04-09T11:07:00.002-06:00

I think I have found that delicate area that is working for me. I don't seem to be fluctuating as much and can see I'm down a few "point somethings" each day which is encouraging. I eat between 1600-1700 cal a day and do aprox 45min of cardio 4-5 days week burning 400-650 cals each session, depending on what I'm doing. These days I do these for cardio:

1)Treadmill at about 6 incline and 3.2mph (basically hill walking)
2)HITT on the tread mil; 3 incline, walk speed 3 mph, run speed 6.5mph, doing 1min run, 2min walk (or until my hr recovers)
3)Stationary biking with a level of at least 10
4)I was doing spin classes but found it too hard on my back and the seats were just TOO uncomfortable. but I loved the work out!

I'm feeling great, and am almost half way to my 1st goal (195 wedding weight). Hubby even noticed the other day when I was dressed going to the gym, he was like "you are looking good!" and noted that he is really starting to see a difference! Whoot whoot!

30

2010-04-03T15:19:00.001-06:00

30lbs down since Nov/09.
Ya me :)

27.4

2010-03-19T20:13:00.001-06:00

I've gone past the 25 mark and am half way to losing 30lbs so far!! Ya Me!
I've dropped my working out a bit, and kept my calories around 1600-1800, stopped eating after supper (most nights :) ) and that has helped to shift things moving again.

Check'n In

2010-03-13T08:46:00.002-07:00

Just because my blog has slowed down doesn't mean I have... I'm still tracking daily with Spark People and I exercise 4-5 days a week, aprox 40-50min and burn 500-700 calories each time! I love tracking my exercise!
I'm seeing tiny shifts on the scale, I think i've just come to terms that I am a slow looser... I've seen 243.4 but it's gone back up to the 244's.. I think I stop eating after supper than I can see the 243's again.
I did my first spin class last week and loved it! It's quite the work out though. My legs/back couldn't handle much of the standing but that will come as I get lighter and stronger. The hour long class went by pretty fast cause you are so focused on just staying alive, lol! I hope to do more because I'm getting kinda bored just doing the treadmill and stationary bike at the gym.

Movement Finally!

2010-03-07T19:12:00.000-07:00

So finally down a bit... 244.2!! and it's TOM, go figure.

Away for a week!

2010-03-04T19:53:00.002-07:00

So i've been away for a week and while I was away the following happened:

1)husband found out he has a broken foot and has a cast, is on crutches and off work for 6-8 weeks
2)went to a funeral (family friend very sick, so it was good)
3)saw the inlaws and my dad and family
4)ate ALOT of chocolates and good home cooking
5)power walked for 1h (aprox. 8k steps) 3 mornings while I was away
6)ate fast food and didn't really like it
7)packed and unpacked the truck 4x by myself
8)didn't gain a pound, may have even lost a pound or 2!

go figure!

I'll take it...

2010-02-25T15:58:00.002-07:00

So weighed my self after working out and I finally saw a shift in the scale. It was 245.
Things i'm doing different
1) eating more calories. Sparks gives me a range of 1500 ish to 1900ish, I always aimed for the 1500# but now I am aiming for the 1900 and it seems to help.
2) I stopped strength training. I know some would not suggest this, and I don't like it too much either, but I NEED to see the scale move. When I get closer to goal I will start incorporating it again.

Hard

2010-02-23T08:40:00.002-07:00

Hard to be motivated to go to the gym and eat well when you keep gaining weight. 248. something this morning. I just don't understand. I feel like I'm slipping off the wagon. I need to see progress. I know I should prob. take my measurements, so I have another way to track. But it's so frustrating seeing that # stay the same, even go up! and now i'm a weekish away from my cycle, so the next 10days is shot for any sort of weight loss. bleh.
I've decided to not do any weight training these next 2 weeks, and just do cardio, see if that makes a difference at all.

What I am currently doing:

tracking calories on spark people, eating 1580-1900 calories a day (as recommended)
working out 4x a week, doing 30-50min of cardio, burning 300-500 calories
(I was doing 15min of weights, lifting pretty heavy, I know I put muscle on easy)
drinking 2L of water a day.

+ we are going away next week. This is always when I totally give up on a program, when we travel and then I usually don't get back on. I REALLY don't' want this to happen, but with my stagnant weight loss, I'm scarred it totally will. boo.

11510

2010-02-18T13:34:00.002-07:00

That's how many steps i'm at so far.. and it's only 1:30pm! I had an amazing 2h work out today at the gym. Mostly because my daughters pre-school had a Field trip to the gym so I didn't' have to waist time driving to school/drive to the gym, get the kids in child care (home with Dad today) ect. (I even had a peaceful shower there too!) I figured I burned around 800-1000 calories!!

Treadmill sprints 30min=400cal
Bike 20min=200cal
Walking track 20min=134cal
weight training 15min=100-200??

and I have to say I cam home and had a huge BBQ steak for lunch. It was soooo good. Almost orgasmic good, as much as a steak could be! Maybe it tasted so good because I was so hungry, lol! I feel good that I ate it for lunch too, not dinner so it didn't sit there!

My weight isn't moving much, but really only been tracking my food for 2 days so I should give it some time eh?

2010-02-17T11:18:00.004-07:00

So I have been trying to get my eating figured out. I was not eating bad, but not tracking/counting ect and that wasn't working for me anymore (stopped losing, but not gaining either) I have been very consistent with my workouts ect. so I thought

"Lady this is crazy, for how hard you are working out at the gym, you are just wasteing it by not being more vigilant with your eating!"

So I joined Sparkspeople. I have decided to track calories, instead of WW points... I quite like the site, I also really like entering everything ect. I entered everything for yesterday and was kinda surprised when I reached my total, I would have probably eating another 500 calories easily, and that's why I stopped loosing.
So here's hopping to the scale starting to go down again! I feel like I've lost almost a month of weight loss just being in limbo. I guess the + is that I've kept up with my gym work outs so getting fitter.

Miss Me?

2010-02-09T16:07:00.002-07:00

Guess I've slacked a bit.. just on the blog.. not on "Healthy New Me" or exercise. (much to my sore muscles dismay). Still kick-en it at the gym, but feeling tired these days, I think I need to eat more (did I really just say that, lol). I'm going about 4 days a week. I finally (well almost) have finished my cycle.. I hate what it does to the scale! I also find that heavy works outs 'do it' to the scale as well. I love how I make all these 'excuses' but really.. it's the truth. If I was eating back and feeling like I've gained weight then they'd be excuses, but because I am eating well, and doing everything I *should* be, then I'm not too worried.

No Excuses

2010-02-03T11:33:00.002-07:00

So I'm at the gym today, peddling up a storm, feeling so tired and blah and just want to quit. I had done 20min on the treadmill and done about 4 sprint sessions and I just had to get off, no energy (I was aiming for 30min)So I thought I'd get on the bike for 10min.

So I'm there, on the bike, feeling frustrated that I'm there, and that I'm tired.. and I watch these 3 men come in to the gym. One you can tell is a phyiso therapist guy(there's an office at the gym) and another guy? and then the guy they were there to help. He was not walking but shuffling in. You could just feel his pain. I think it was a leg/knee maybe back issue? The go to the lat-pull down machine. (basically you sit down and pull the bar down to your chest). He attempted to sit down. He couldn't even do this. You could just feel his pain. They tried having him sit turned around (so his knee's wouldn't have to fit under the pads. No go. They tried having him stand and do it. No go. So off they shuffle, out of the gym.

I'm thinking that man would give anything to be able to just walk upright and in to a gym. To be able to perform basic body movements. I don't know his story, I'm guessing and accident of some type. I bet he has felt at some point what he would give to have his 'old' body back. We need to realize how blessed we are that we have able, healthy bodies. Yes I am carring around about 80-90lbs of EXTRA fat, but I can still move, I have NO EXCUSES not go move my body. NO EXCUSES.

NO EXCUSES.

Blah Blah Blah...

2010-02-01T09:15:00.003-07:00

That is how I feel. No motivation, I just want to sleep, blah blah blah. When did this wash over me? I hate it! I am hoping it's just PMS, but still, it's hard to function when you feel like this! I have not exercised since Friday. I know I NEED to go today but uhg. And of course my weight is up a pound or 2. And have I drank hardly a cup of water in the past 48hours, I think not. Yesterday I skipped breakfast, had peanut butter cookies for lunch and then had a huge supper. Not they way to do things!!!
Wish me luck on getting back in the the "mode"

**update**
so I MADE myself do something, I rode my bike at home for 25min. I have to admit it did feel good, but hasn't totally washed away the blahs.... but it helped!

Hmph

2010-01-29T11:06:00.002-07:00

So up 3lbs today.. I'm chalking it up to heavy workout yesterday and PMS. TOM is in a week, next sat. I'm not going to stress, I'm not going to stress. I really think it has to do with those 2 factors. We'll only see after next week I guess. And after a few months of steady tracking, if my weight always jumps up a bit before TOM. I seem to reacal it does.

20

2010-01-27T09:17:00.002-07:00

Down 20bls since Nov. 9th (notice that includes over Christmas!!) Whoot Whoot... next milestone, 27lbs=10% loss...

That is over 11weeks so that is aprox. 1.8lbs a week!! (my average is usually 1.5lb/week so I'll take the little bit more!
So to get to short term goal (199) it will take aprox.28weeks=Aug/2010
and to get to long term goal (175) it will take aprox. 41 weeks=Nov/Dec 2010

It seems weird to me that I can actually be at goal by Christmas!! Thought I am NOT putting any time line on it, as I know I will have plateaus and what not! It's just nice to know it's possible.

Tales from the Scale

2010-01-26T15:45:00.002-07:00

So my scale has been doing funny things... remember a little while ago I said how sometimes I'd get on the scale and it would be down, and then I'd adjust it and it would be up again. Well this morning I got on and what did I see? 247.4, I was like "Wow!" so double checking, tired again, again 247.4lbs! Adjust the scale and it was still 247.4. I am a little unsure about accepting this weight. Right after I had breakfast (a bowl of cereal) I weighed again, 250.6... hmmm don't think I age 3lbs of cereal. what ever. After I worked out (hard, sweaty HIIT work out) I weighed 249.0 so that is the weight I am going with today.
So I know what you are thinking.. "GIRL STOP WEIGHING YOUR SELF 5MILLION TIMES A DAY!!!" ha ha I know, I know better, but it was that low # this morning that threw me off, I kept having to check if it was "real". I'll know better tomorrow morning.
Thank you for not chastising me. XOXO

Classy...

2010-01-25T16:58:00.002-07:00

So, another wake up call, though currently I am very awake, but I guess this should help keep me awake.. I just realized that with the last 2 pounds I lost I went from CLASS 2 OBESE (holy CRAP) to Class 1 Obese.

Firstly I'd like to say that I've never considered my self obese, yes overweight, yes fat, etc, but not 'obese'. To learn that I'm actually in (or was just in) the 2nd level of obesity is just, well, gross! and very very unhealthy!

So proud (I guess) to say that I am no longer class 2 obese, but only class 1. Can't wait to get in to the 'overweight' category :)

Butt

2010-01-23T16:11:00.003-07:00

That's what I kicked at the gym today, and it felt awesome! I was reading (thru random surf'n the net last night) that listed the best 3 ways to loose fat.

1. Strength training
2. HIIT (High intensity interval training)
3. Cardio

It really made sense to me, so I am tiring to make sure I do some weights when ever I'm at the gym. Today I did a different cardio "routine" I was aiming for a HIIT type work out. I'd walk for 2min (level 3.0 incline, 3.0 speed) and then I did 10.0 incline for 2min, back to 3.0 incline. I did 2 or 3 sets of those. Then I changed up the speed; 1min at 6.0 speed (for me this is a big effort!) and then 3.0 speed until my heart rate recovered, then do another sprint.
I really loved it and it went by fast, I had a good sweat on and felt like I really did something. It was awesome!

Yabba Dabba Dooooooo

2010-01-23T08:26:00.003-07:00

Hello 40's... it's been a while, but I've missed you so. You are as inspiring as ever. However I hope our affair is a short one, only a month or two. As there is another I'm starting to fantasize about.. the 30's. Forgive me.

Dinner Out

2010-01-22T19:55:00.003-07:00

So we had GNO tonight (girls night out) we went for dinner. I was nervous as this is where temptation gets me usually! So I passed on appetizers, even though someone wanted to split the calamari with me, which I LOVE. I ordered the grilled salmon, said no to the rice, doubled my veggies, and cancelled the sauce that was to come with the salmon. Guess what, it was still very good! Any meal I don't have to cook for my self is yummy! I think it also tasted good as there was no guilt with it. I had a nibble (1) of someones popcorn shrimp. And tried a 1/2 a ravioli of someone else's.
It's funny, I feel quite proud of myself. lol!

Almost There...

2010-01-22T10:31:00.000-07:00

the 40's that is... maybe tomorrow...

Thoughts

2010-01-20T09:12:00.002-07:00

So these are some thoughts i've been having.

*When I start working out, feeling great, I think I am look'n good, I feel like i'm slimmer than I am. Then I get a glimps in the mirror and YIKES. I get disheartened to see that I am the same. Which really should be no big surprize as i've only lost a minimal amount of weight so far. And lets face it, I do weigh 250lbs. No matter how tall I am, I can't 'carry that well'. I have to constantly remind myself that it will take a while, probably a good year + to get to goal (170's). That after 1-2 weeks of working out I am not instantly going to have a ripped, hot body.

*I love chocolate, I can not live with out chocolate. So I will need to learn to 'pace' myself with this delectable treat.

*It's hard being a SAHM.

Friends are Fabulous!

2010-01-18T18:58:00.002-07:00

So this past Saturday I have a very dear friend of mine come visit. She lives& works in Africa... sooo I don't see her to often. She gets home 2x a year. Home for her is actually 5h drive from me but she made that drive and came to visit me! She's one of those friends that you can go how ever long with out talking/seeing and then when you do see them, it's like you've never spent a day apart. I love her like she was sister. It was so good to see her and just have some girlfriend time!

Ok so I know that had nothing to do with weight loss, but just had to share. On to weight loss stuff...

I road my bike at home for 16min. I find it way easier with shoes on. Not sure why I thought it would be good to go shoe-less in the first place. I also hit the gym today. Hubby's on days off so I was able to go kid-less which is nice. Even though they go in the child care it was nice not to have to deal with the drop off/pick up thing. I did 45min walking on the treadmill (but at a level that made me sweat and have a target heart rate) and then I did 15min of various upper body weights. Felt pretty good if I do say so! I have plans to hit the gym again tomorrow. Love it!

It's all Coming Back to Me...

2010-01-15T11:16:00.002-07:00

What you ask... several things;

1) that the week after my period is the prime week for me to drop poundage. That's why this week the #'s are very much in my favor, after this week, the next three, it's not so easy/fast.

2) that good, wholesome, pure food really does taste amazing and better than anything processed. I find I am naturally gravitating toward food in it's simplest form. For breakfast I made a big fruit salad (oranges, grapefruits, banana's, strawberries) the kids and I loved it. We had some yogurt with it too! My favorite lunch right now is a pita pizza. You take a whole wheat pita, spread a little BBQ sauce on the bottom, add thin sliced peppers, onions, yesterday I then added some frozen shrimp pieces I had and top with lf mozzarella cheese, cook under the broiler for about 5min, sooo Good!!!!

3) it feels amazing to exercise and move your body. It feels great for your body and for your mind. It's very therapeutic. VERY.

4) I think I am doing better by not setting any goals.. for now. I feel less pressure. I'm just doing the right thing day by day. I am having little nibbles of 'favorites' (chocolate) and am satisfied with the few bites I get, and I have no guilt about it. I'm very much and all or nothing girl when it comes to weight loss and I think that's where I've had problems before. I'd get so frustrated and mad at my self for not staying 100% on plan, I'd get in a downward cycle.

15

2010-01-13T09:38:00.002-07:00

Yup, that's what i've lost so far. I guess since Nov 9th ish. So that averages out to about 1.5lbs a week, which is were I always seem to settle out with weight loss. It would be nice to be loosing a bit more, bit faster, seems I am *big* and all.. but I'll take what I can get. and given that was over Christmas/New Years, i'd say pretty good!
I am really itching to get out of the 50's.. it's time. I also need to get with a program (points, core, calorie counting etc) and stick with it. I'm not doing anything right now but "making better choices" and really watching my carb intake. I feel i'd have better results if I was following a program, but finding it difficult to get with it.

Guess What I Did Today...

2010-01-12T15:20:00.002-07:00

Yes, I set foot in my local gym. First time in a while (prob 1.5y!!) I stopped going for a couple reasons
a)2 summers ago I attempted to run a 5k, failed miserably, went on vacation afterwards, and this was the start to a HUGE downward spiral for myself.
b)it's expensive with 3 kid... they do offer child minding, but with 2-3 kids in it, it adds up. Today my bill was $15 (for my pass and child minding) so do that 2-3X a week equals about $120-$180 a month, which is kinda a lot for a 1 income family.

But I'm going to crunch #'s and see what I can come up with. If I go while 1 child is in Pre-School then I only have to pay for 2 kids, and if I get a 4m-1y pass it's cheaper, but then there is the inital cost as well.

Anyways it felt good, I walked on the treadmill for 30min at an incline and got a good sweat on. Then I did 10min on the eliptial mch. I really don't like eliptials, I feel like they don't really do anything.. but they only had 1 upright bike at the moment ( read some sign about more being on order). So it felt really great to sweat, and i've booked my kids in to child minding on thurs so well see if we can make it a twice this week thing.

Mental Health Day.. Sort of

2010-01-09T09:54:00.002-07:00

So hubby is away working.. has been since last Sunday.. for those that don't know, I am a SAHM of 3 kids, 4,3,1 and well it's alot of work! Exp. when hubby is away working! So I did a little road trip to my friends house, she lives about 2.5h from me. She has 3 young kids at home too! So really it wasn't much of a "break" but nice to have some girl time! One thing we did (it was even my idea!!) was go to her gym. They have child minding and I thought it would be a good way to get some grown up time in + doing something good for us (she has about 15lbs of baby weight left to lose). I'm proud to say I rode the bike for 30min and got a good sweat on! Then I rode the sit down bike and chatted with her for another 15min, but it wasn't really a 'work out' but I guess we were moving, so it count for something.
My cycle is due to start any day so I'm hoping that's why my weight is not changing.. so we'll see in a week or so.

Mean Scale...

2010-01-06T09:18:00.003-07:00

Eating treats while watching the Biggest Loser is like.... I don't know.. it's just bad! I don't know why but last night I was just craving a treat so bad. I tried to combat it with a bowl of mini-wheat cereal.. but it didn't work, so off to my baking stash I go.. skor bits and chocolate chips. It did totally hit the spot, but still, why do we have such strong cravings? Anyways I didn't dwell on it, just moved on.

On another note, my scale likes to play tricks on me... once in a while I get on it and am like "Holy Crap"!! like a couple weeks ago when it was 251. I mean I would love to believe it, but you know how you can just "tell" when it's not your true weight. The next time it did that, I got off and re-positioned it and it went back to "normal" 254-255 range. Weird. So this morning I hop on it, and what do I see? 250.0, 249.8, 250.4... ummm I'd love to be that, but I can tell in my body I'm not. + I doubt I drooped 4lbs in one day. So I re-position the scale, wipe the "feet" with my finger and hop back on... 254.4, 254.6. 255... Why would it tease me like that in the beginning? Mean scale.

Funny Thing...

2010-01-05T09:39:00.002-07:00

Since New Years Eve, I have been off the wagon BIG TIME. So I get on the scale this morning (after encouraging another blogger I'd feel hypocritical if I didn't follow my preaching) and low and behold... i have not gained weight!!??? (check out my daily weigh in on the side bar)

So off to the grocery store to stock up on good foods. I think I'm going to do a version of core/clean eating. I've tried several times to start doing points, but just wasn't working for me yet. I also watched Dr. Oz's "diet" yesterday and quite liked his recommendations a quick synopsis of what they were:
Top 5 foods NOT to eat:
1) simple sugar
2) syrups
3) white flours
4) trans fats
5) saturated fats

also,
measure your waist (should not be more than 1/2 your height) eat off a 9" dinner plate, automate your meals, 10'000 steps a day... etc.

ok it's getting late and I need to get this day started :)

He He He...

2010-01-02T17:55:00.002-07:00

Sooooo 251 didn't last long. The next day it was back up to 254 something and then New Years Eve happened, I put on a spread for a few friends... and there were left overs.. and well.. I'm sitting around 256 right now. WHOOOPS. Funny the past 3 New Years i've been 250 (well this year i'm 5lbs over. But in between those times I've been any where from 218 to 268... funny how that works, by New Years I manage to get back (up or down) to 250...

Happy New Year all!!! Will this be the year? I bet you and me hope so... It's in our hands, and we can make a significant change in one year... can we do it? YES Will we do it? yes.. (hopefully).

Hmmm

2009-12-29T10:19:00.002-07:00

Not sure how it happened but apparently I lost 3lbs yesterday, lol. We all know that doesn't happen but maybe with drinking enough water, the exercise I got in and eating very "good" translated in to my body shifting. Anyway I'll take it, but with a grain of salt, we'll see what she feels like telling me tomorrow!

So yesterday I did 3 10min shifts on my bike, it actually worked out really well/easy! I found it much easier doing 10min shifts rather than doing a full 30min. From what I've read, it doesn't matter if you do the exercise at the same time or not.. so for now that what works for me!

I've also started tracking WW points again.. more to make sure I'm eating enough calories/points as I tend to not eat enough when I start "eating right".

Happy to Report

2009-12-28T09:02:00.002-07:00

That it's 3 days after Christmas and I am 'holding' quite well. I defiantly ate, but only did one big meal a day.. and no seconds. I really didn't have a big hanker'n for sweets, but had a few. I also bought an at home exercise bike (just a basic model) I'm hoping to ride while the kid's watch cartoons (and lessen my time on the Internet ha ha) I did 5min last and I find it really hurts my "bum bones" but I think if I start out slow I can build up a tolerance for it!!

Holding with a Minor downshift

2009-12-09T15:12:00.002-07:00

So just in hold mode over the holidays, though I am mindful of what I am eating, but am defiantly have treats. I've lost about 2lbs over the past couple weeks so that is nice also! Just watched the Biggest Loser finale last night and it is always so inspiring. If someone out there can do it, then why can't I? I know it won't happen the speed it does on the show, but It CAN happen.

Slipping...

2009-11-27T11:52:00.001-07:00

the hill is getting slippy...

2009-11-22T19:19:00.002-07:00

Finished my cleanse yesterday. Feel pretty good, i've noticed a difference in how my clothes fit, even loosing just 10lbs, so that's nice! I had a craft fair this weekend, and my booth was right across from the HOMEMADE FUDGE BOOTH, I was strong till sat. afternoon :). I've decied to continue to really watch my starchy carbs, sugar, thought I know I can never live with out sugar (chocolate) I will do my best to be more awear of my intake. I think i'm going to start WW points program tomorrow. It's always worked the best for me.
Just trying to stay updated :)

2009-11-15T21:54:00.005-07:00

So.......

It's been a while... a LOOOOOOOONG while. And guess what!!! I'm fat, again. Why do we do this to ourselves? It makes no sense, but alas, I have done it. This past year has been a love fest with McDonald's, chocolate and my couch. As I look over my previous weights, I think, girl, you were getting there, you were getting close.. what happened.

The point where I gave up was in the summer of 2008, I planned to run a 5km at hubby's family reunion in July. I had been running way more than 5k in the gym, on the treadmill. When it came to the race, I blew. I had to walk probably 70% of it and I was so dis-heartened. I felt like a complete failure. I thought after all my work and I can't even run a stupid 5k outside, screw it. We went camping for the next 2 weeks, and I started to let my diet slide.. and well I'm kinda an all or nothing girl and once I was on that downward spiral, I was too scared to jump off.

I would get on the scale periodical over the past 16m and always thought, and If I was under my ultimate high (265), then I wouldn't worry. Well recently the scale started venturing in to the unknown.. I started seeing 266, 267, and even, gulp. 268lbs.

I was able to lose 5lbs before our anniversary cruise the 1st of November, but of course put it back on, on the cruise, but I really think alot of it was water weight as I was so swollen and puffy from the air travel.

We got back last Monday, and on Tuesday I stared doing a herbal detox/cleanse to kick start my journey (again~!!) It's a complete 180 from my previous eating habits. Basically no dairy, no flours. You eat healthy proteins, beans, veggies of all kinds, fruit (no tropical), healthy oils and lots and lots of water (I am embarrassed to say how little water I have drank this past year).
So in the past week I've lost almost 9lbs!!! Which I know is alot of water, but feels good to get ride of all the same, and it's got me out of the 60's which is great to see.

so, that's where things are at. After the cleanse (ends on next Sunday) I might do a yeast cleanse as I've had a problem with that this past year, probably because of the copious amounts of sugar I've eaten. I will then settle out in to weight watchers; that program has always worked the best for me! I might even give core a try as it's basically how I'm eating now!

see you soon!

Saturday's post

2009-01-10T08:30:00.002-07:00

So I made some yummy bread yesterday; whole wheat with flax seed meal, flax seeds and wheat germ. I"m going to have to find a recipe builder online to attempt to find point values for my bread, as I'd really like keep baking bread. Hubby and I are going out to diner tonight to use up a gift certificate we got for Christmas. I figure use it up before it burns a whole in my gut and then I don't' have to use it when I get back on track, as that is when I usually fail. When I get get off track a tiny bit I end up falling off largely.

I keep trying to think of things or treats or presents that will keep me going. Which you know thinking about it the motivation should just come from pure desire to live a healthier, fitter life. But it does seem to help to have something to work towards. I am contemplating giving someone (prob. my MIL) a 'chunk' of $$ (enough that would be uncomfortable if I did not get it back) and ask her to keep it and if by ?? (probably July for a family reunion with them) I don't weight ??? (prob. 210lbs) then she can keep the $$. I have plans for a fall vacation with the $$ so If I don't 'win' it back then I'd be out of luck on my trip as well... and I'd be a tiny bit OK with them keeping the $$ if I didn't reach goal.

But I haven't officially decided on this yet... I just keep 'thinking' about everything. I also noticed that they finally have another WW meeting option here. It was that there was only one; Thursday at 5:15pm. Now there is a Thursday 12noon. Which is better... but still tricky with 3 little ones. I know I probably wouldn't get much from the meeting because I'd be trying to contain my monkeys. Hubby is never home in time to ensure i could get to the evening meeting. So probably just doing it on the blog then.

OK so off to start my Saturday... the usual; cleaning, laundry, meals etc. My life is sooooo monotonous!!

Getting there

2009-01-07T11:27:00.002-07:00

So each day I think more and more (and more ++ too) about getting serious about getting back on the wagon. I watched Oprah's show the other day and her talking about how she fell off the wagon in 2008. and it doesn't make me feel as bad. If a woman who has the world at her finger tips can't keep the weight off, or falls off the wagon, than it isn't as simple as we'd like to think sometimes. I also really relate to her theory about it's not a 'weight' issue but other issues that surface as a weight issue. I think for me that certainly can be the case.

I also watch Biggest Lose last night (yes, I do like my telly'vision) and of course find that somewhat motivating. I like how they are sending the partners home to do it at home, to PROVE to us, at home, on our couch that it is doable at home, if the desire is there.

So there is really nothing but myself standing in the way of me reaching goal in 2009. I have to admit it feels better to 'only' have to loose 66lbs as oppose to the 90 I had to lose when I started on this journey in 2007 (YES 2007)...

So I'll let everyone know when I am officially on the wagon. Right now I'd say I am following the wagon... contemplating when to make that leap on board.

Step 1...

2009-01-05T11:26:00.003-07:00

I ate oatmeal for breakfast; 1/4 dry with vanilla, 1tbs low cal. syrup and about 1/2 a banana. and it tasted pretty good. I also drank my first large cup of water in an embarrassing long amount of time. (seriously months!!) Funny think is about an hour later I was tiding up and I got really weak/dizzy/light headed and had the shakes. Almost like I was going thru high sugar/high carb withdrawal!! Weird. so I ate some cashews.. then some mini eggs 'cause hubby just bought some bags 'cause they were on sale (forgot to mention I am *trying* to be good.)

Baby steps though. I was reading Colette's blog and it took her about a week to fully get back in to things, as I think it might with me. We don't have a ton of 'non healthy' things in the house (well some minieggs) but just have to veer away from high carb choices. And really start drinking water.

Also another problem I foresee is that I got a Bosch for Christmas from my hubby and I LOVE to bake and now with this new unit I can whip any and everything up effortlessly. but most baking items are not the best for you. I guess I can search out healthy grain breads... but what's the fun in that???

Oh and I am down a little, but these days I know I am fluxing lots due to random eating...

WI

2009-01-03T10:43:00.003-07:00

So I weigh'd in this morning... not pretty... not pretty AT ALL. But I have no one to blame but myself so no point making a big deal out of it...

244.6lbs

Jan 1st, 2008 I was 249.8... so still down...barely!!

Thank you for the comments... It almost brought tears to my eye's to see that I had several comments so quickly, that in it's self made me feel good. Thank you.

As for Colette... the sad thing is my inital reaction was food. I love food more right now. THAT'S a problem!!

MJ & Candice... thank you so much for your comments! I liked the quote... I'm big on quotes.. maybe I should write it out and put it on my mirror or something.

2009-01-03T08:23:00.002-07:00

The following post is actually a comment I left on a fellow WL (Colette) blogger's site, after she reminded me "Ok you have had your fun. Time to get back on the wagon..."

"Hey Colette, you just can't forget about me can you *smile*. Your opening comment made me laugh, but also be a bit accountable. Why is this SUCH a struggle??? Of course I've been thinking about getting back on the wagon, and I know I so need to in all aspects of it, but I am just purposely not doing it. Almost the opposite...filling my face till it hurts and eating crap when I don't even feel like it.It's affecting all aspects of my life, I am grumpier, no energy, less patient with my family and very low self esteem. I KNOW what I need to do, how to do it etc. but am I doing it? noooooooo. Why? don't know.I am still lighter this year than what I started the year at last year (249.8 last year and about 240 this year.) Yes you read that right; back up to 240. the lowest # I saw this past year was 218. Can you believe that? I let myself gain a solid 20lbs after losing it. If I had gone in the other direction...i'd be where you are sitting... under 200... uhhhhggg.What's a girl to do?"

It's funny I asked "What's a girl to do?" as I know dang well what I need to do... but I can't find the motivation to DO IT. I feel like it's such a cycle, either your on the up swing, or the down swing... and right now I am so on the down swing, and have been since this past July. I don't know if i'm down about everything right now because i'm not doing what I should; or if i'm not doing what I should BECAUSE I am down about everything else (just in a rut with being a SAHM, dealing with 2 toddlers, the mundane house work etc).

and also I hate 'starting up' this time of year because it feels so typical, and everybody's doing it... I don't like following the crowds.

Contest time for Me

2008-12-01T16:06:00.003-07:00

I know I should post more... but it's just to enter this contest. An update on me would be I've gained a solid 10-13lbs since the summer. Suck. I know. and now it's right in the middle of baking season... and I have totally mis-placed my motivation. I think I may have left it somewhere on that 5k course from the summer as that was the last time I had any. But other than that life is good. Crazy busy with the kids, they drive me insane most days, but I'm surviving. (barely).

I entered the Mary Lou's Weigh Platform Giveaway!
Check out Roni’s Weight Loss Blog for more information.

Howdy!

2008-10-09T08:29:00.002-06:00

So just touching base... i'm still around... kinda in a holding pattern still.. it's a tuff time of year! We have thanksgiving this weekend, then it's my cruise (Oct 19 whoot whoot) and then halloween (but i've been feeling the effects of that already) and so on... it also doesn't help that I have been in a baking mood latley. I've found a great recipe for cinnamon buns and then I whipped up a creamcheese frosting to go on to, cookies galor, carmel popcorn, turtle cheesecake, the list goes on and on.
When I went back home last weekend for a funeral (my Nanny; she was 90) ppl still said it' looked like I was still looking slimmer/loosing. My brother made a odd, comment. At diner none the less "it looks like your boobs are smaller". Errr thanks bro, I think. What are you doing looking at my boobs?
So what else is new in my life...hmmmm, just plugging along.. constantly cleaning and doing laundry, bleh. It's starting to cool off here, today it was 0 C. Not sure what that in is F. but it's just right at the freezing level here. I think the snow is coming. Perfect time for a cruise. Did I mention how FREAKING EXCTIED I am for my cruise? The husband as already made a request.. that we sleep neked for the whole cruise, lol. I think he thinks we won't be leavign the room as we'll be 'occupied' the whole time, (well I will be :0 ) opps that was kinda naughty! It will be a very nice, needed break and quality husband wife'ie time.
ok off to vacume.

Baby Steps

2008-09-15T13:55:00.003-06:00

So I weighed this morning and I was 225.6 which I am neither happy nor sad about... but on a NSV side I did some fall shopping and comfortably bought 16+ size pants/jeans and I love them! I love more than I am defiatly a 16 (plus still though). I bought some regular size sweater vest top thingies too that I like, in a large to boot! It kinda motivates me a bit to get back on track...kinda. Thanks for the support while i've been unmotivated :)

Other than WL, things are good here, just busy with live, weddings (go GRandma) sickness, laundry, getting ready for my cruise (5weeks!) and general life stuff.

Here, but just in spirit

2008-09-03T22:32:00.003-06:00

Hello...

Still around, but haven't found the wagon. I did get on the scale the other night, it was scary but not What the Hell am I doing scary (well OK almost) It was 229.8 .... in the evening....day before AF. So now I'm in the middle of AF, who in their right mind starts a *diet* during AF I ask? ... so when she is gone... I will try really really hard to get back on track...(can you tell I am not so sure yet?)

On to funner things.. I bought another dress for my cruise.. and it' makes my boobs look amazing...if I wear it as a strappy little sundress.. but I'd be to self conscious... so I'll pair it with a cute little t I got for .94 cents! Oh and I ordered a couple little *ditties* (as my GF's and I use to call them) for 'desert' wink wink if you know what I mean... ha ha. Better than the moo-moo I was thinking of bringing to laze around our cabin in.

ok. chow for now.

No News is Bad News...

2008-08-24T17:10:00.003-06:00

Yup, you caught me. I am offically off the wagon. I'm not sure I can even see the wagon anymore.. and you know what that sounds familular to me..i'll have to go back and see if I already used that one.

So i'm struggling because of vacations/camping, a baby that is back to waking up every 2hrs, beyond frustration with my toddler girls and potty training, and being bumbed out seeing pics of me when I thought I was doing/looking good but realising I look just as [fat] *I hate saying that work* as ever. I feel like I am doomed in the 220's and my body won't let me leave. I know a bit of a pitty party, and I know what i'd say to the person if I was reading this blog and not typing it... but that is where i'm at. My cruise in less than 2m isn't even motivation as I think i'm going to gain 10lbs on it anyways...

So I hope to find the motivation soon, but really i'm not too motivated to find the motivation either....

blahhhhhhhh.

Whooooops

2008-08-09T22:32:00.002-06:00

So I said i'd be back... and I guess I kinda forgot....whooooops! So I next morning post-vac. WI was I think...227? This morning I was down to the 224's so getting back in the right zone. I still feeling incredibly 'eaty' meaning I am full but still want to munch munch munch! But trying to be *good* (fruit has been my savior).

So I guess I have a NSV though... while on holidays, I donned the 'ol swim suit.... not the granny boring one I sometimes post before/after pics of but my 'cute ones' and well they were just too darn big! One kept ridding up my but, it drove me nuts! I guess my bee-hind was big enough to hold it down. At one point I got so fed up with picking it out of my a*s that I just let it sit up there. Nice Lara, nice....

My other suit... a cute 2pc 'tankinie' style, well the empire on this is suppose to be tight enough to hold the girls up, well nope. They kept sliding down so they were kinda hanging out of the bottom, then causing the top 'cup' part to ride up. A nice look also...nothing like super saggy boobs on show.

So I went swim suit shopping tonight, just to get something for the cruise in Oct as I doubt I'll find much for swimwear up north here past Aug. So I ended up getting a cute brown number that DEFIANTLY does the girls justice and a more 'normal' black/red jobbie that I can do what ever in and everything stays in place and I still register somewhere on the cute factor. If you're good, I may even post pics :) Oh did I mention my old suits are 20's and the new ones are a 14 and 16 !!! oh yaaaaa baby!

I'm baaaaack (and so are some poooounds....)

2008-08-05T14:35:00.002-06:00

Stay tooned for my offical post-vacation weigh in tomororw morning... but I jumped on 'er around lunch, fully clothes and a tummy happy with some morning chocolate... I was 228.2. The morning we left I was 218.8 ...by the way did I mention that??? I'll have to go read my blog and see. but yes I got up early (6am) and ran and came home and WI on an empty tummy and I was 218.8.
Vacation was great! The kids did so great camping, which makes things all the more better! I'll post some pics in a few days!
I also ran a 5k race during the first few days of my vacation and let me tell you, it kicked my A*S! Lets say I need to get off the treadmill and hit the pavement!... and that was the last time I ran... July 26th.. it's now Aug. 5th...

and for the record I didn't bring my scale but I think I should have as it would have kept me in line more... I did good the first day and a half...then it all went to hell.

1/2 Way to a Healthy BMI

2008-07-23T13:39:00.003-06:00

Yup today I am half way thru my battle with 'releasing' my excess weight (I don't want to lose it as when you lose something you tend to find it again someday). I have released 43.4lbs so far (since June 07) and I have 43.4lbs to release and I will be in the healthy BMI range!! I also only have 7lbs to release and I will not be considered obese anymore! Whoot whoot!

I'm heading out on vacation tomorrow so prob. won't be able to post much... I'll be back Aug 4/5th and will check in then... I think i'm going to bring my scale on vacation with me...help me keep accountable; am I hard core or WHAT!

Best Run Yet

2008-07-21T20:13:00.002-06:00

So I had my best run yet today! I wish I could figure out how to post my little Nike+ running graph! I ran for 50min today--straight--no stopping!!! It felt pretty good, I was determined to run more than 45 which is what I have been doing on a good day. I'm starting to realize how 'fit' I am becoming and it feels great. Shorts I could barley get over my booty last year (and were waaaaaay to tight to actually wear out in public) are loose straight out of the washing machine and soon will be too loose to wear period. I think my back fat rolls are turning in to back fat bumps; meaning that they aren't rolling over now but just still there a bit, kinda a crease under them. I can see my waist line attempting to come out of hiding also.

So we go on vacation on Thursday for 10-14 days. Just visiting the in laws and trying out some camping.. (did I tell'ya all that we bought a new trailer? 30ft, queen bed + quad bunks in the back!). and then finishing off with a family reunion on my step mom's side... but I know I need to stay OP. That little 4 day episode proved that to me. Ya I might be eating all 35FP but I need to be accountable and not just go hog wild. I SO need to get out of the 220's I feel like I've been here for EVER!

Ok my back is getting sore from sitting at the 'puter.. chat later...

Saturday

2008-07-19T07:42:00.002-06:00

So I made it to the gym yesterday... and had a good 44min run. Did I tell you guys I got the Nike /Ipod thingy? I quite like it. It's awsome it tracks my work outs, it can even 'train' me if I decide. The weight is slowly coming back down. It really surpirzes me that I can gain that much in that short of time! really I went from 221.8 on Fri. to 227 on Thurs. Can I really blame all that on low water & AF? Or does 5 days of horrible eating really = 5 lbs gained...I think I have to realize I can't just go from one extream to the other (eating totally OP/good to fast food and chocolate all day long). I had a goal to be at 224 for July 1st, which I was... then my next goal was 214 for Aug 1st...ummm I don't think that will happen. and to look back and realize i'm at the exact spot I was at July 1st, and it's now 19 days later... is a big depressing! I guess I still have 2 weeks so I will *hopefully* be under 200 but at the same time we go on holidays July 24th...uhggg.

Back; me and the weight...

2008-07-17T20:10:00.003-06:00

So i'm back from my little jaunt the beginning of this week (left sat afternoon, back wed. night) It was busy; always so much to do... and we went specifically for my one dd's Dr. appt. which went well but the test it's self (VCUG) was not fun.

So I ate, and ate and ate and ATE the entire time. Didn't help that af came, I was away from *my* kitchen, my step mom is a great cook, I am week for chocolate and fast food. I don't think I drank more than 1 cup of water the entire 4 days. Seriously. Why do I go so off kilter? I brought my work out gear, but of course had no time to work out. So today at the gym SUCKED as I feel like i'm back at square one.

Plus today was such a crappy day. Just really sucky.. the girls were driving me CRAZY, had me in tears this morning, which I hate and has only happened once or twice before.. some days I just don't like my life very much. Which I hate saying... but it's true. A tell-a-marketer called tonight at bedtime, and I told him, it was bed time and NOT a good time, so he asked if he could call earlier tomorrow, to which I replied "my life is hell right now, no time is a good time." I think he actually hung up on me, after a hurried "oh i'm sorry".
Sorry this is turning more in to a rant... i'll be fine in a day or two once the hormones level out and I get back in to my routine...oh and my back hurts to top it off...oh and I saw 227 this morning. blah.

ok good night....

Another boring post about Gym Time!

2008-07-10T15:22:00.002-06:00

So another great day at the gym, 45min on the treadmill (7m walking/talking, 38min running) felt really good. So I think my body does pretty good if it can have a day off between runs...not saying I will do that, but just expect less on back to back work out days. So this is day #3 this week at the gym. I have full intentions on going to the gym tomorrow as well, so it will make it 4 days.

I think I am starting to pms...sore boobs ect so I am preparing myself for a lull in weight loss for a week or so. Trying to mentally prepare for that week of not much movement on the o'l scale.

Also I was reflecting on my struggles about 2 weeks ago regarding being so frustrated with maintaining...and I think the problem was I was just eating too many points. Plain and simple. I was eating my daily points (28) plus all AP's I earned plus a good portion of my flex points. That worked fine and dandy 30-40 pounds ago. But my body changed so my points needs changed. I needed to eat less points and exercise more. Wise old advice I know. These days I am eating right about 26pts a day... period. I might throw in a once a week splurge meal to stir things up, but for now this is what is working for me! I think we have to remember that our bodies are changing and evolving all the time and they adapt AMAZINGLY well to what ever we throw at them so we have to change it up all the time.

Whoot Whoot

2008-07-08T19:37:00.002-06:00

So went to the DR. today to request a cholesterol test (I have on the high side) and want to see if my weight loss and exercise is having a ++ impact on it. So Dr. weights me, at 4:30 in the afternoon, fully clothed and I was....drum roll please.... 219 and 3/4!!! I was so excited! His scale does weigh a few pounds lighter than mine, but to know I am that close to the teens on mine was exciting and felt great! Another good thing, is first he weighed me in kilograms and I was 99.7 so that means I just broke out of the triple digit's for kg's!!!

Oh I forgot to mention the other night I bought 2 dresses for my cruise (haven't even booked the cruise yet!) I couldn't resist, one was a cute t-shirt style knit dress, turquoise for $10, the second was a cotton short sleeve turquoise plaid button front with a cute little tie at the waist, again $10! I bought in REGULAR sizes one a large the other an XL, I can get both on and the button one mostly buttoned up but is very tight so I think it will look great in 20-30lbs, and I'll be in a regular XL, that to me is INSANE!

Gym Time

2008-07-08T13:25:00.002-06:00

So i've been 2 days in a row! Yesterday was a great day, you know the kind where you feeling like you could run forever, or your usual routine feels easy? I ran 45min (5min warm up) and sweated like a PIG and I loved every minute of it. I went today and well as soon as I started I knew it wouldn't be like yesterday, so I ran 25min, and biked 13min and did a couple sets of leg weights. I'm taking tomorrow off and then back thurs & fri as we are heading out of town Sunday to WEd. so I doubt i'll be able to squeeze in a work out, but i iwll bring my runners, just in case!
Also I got a Nano last night! I told hubby I was interested in getting the Nike Apple Sport ipod thingy and well he said ok! So now I just have to buy the Nike part when we are in a bigger centre next week! i'm excited for my new gadgets!

I feel really good about my new way of eating. I feel like i'm eating very clean, no processed food, artificial sweeteners, treats ect. I know the shakes are very processed but when I ease off them I feel ready to make more 'clean' meals and not so many processed ones. Even laying off the snack packs, thins, fugsicles, crystal light ect!

ok nap time for the kiddo's = couch time for tallmama!!

2008-07-08T07:28:00.004-06:00

This tag comes from MissJulynotyet .
I'm supposed to tell you 6 random things about me...

1~ I use to kick box; (back in 1997/1998) and retired undefeated. I fought competitors from Saskatchewan to East Los Angles. My last fight weigh in was 162lbs.

2~All 3 of my children were adopted, with much love, after finding out that husband has an extra X chromosome (XXY) that left him sterile.

3~I back-packed by my self to Fiji, New Zealand and Australia a few years after college for 11m.

4~I'm LDS

5~I have my college diploma in Fashion Design. (went to school in Toronto; righ out of high school)

6~I love being naked, even at 265lbs I could care less about being naked.

The rules:Link to the person who tagged you.Post the rules on your blog.Write six random things about yourself. Tag six people at the end of your post.Let each person know they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog. Let the tagger know when your entry is up.

My first time tagging ppl...here goes...
MJ
CakeandCookies
Diary of an Aspiring Loser
Becky
Colette
Zazu

Not so Mad today...

2008-07-06T19:28:00.003-06:00

So thinks are a bit better, for now...I got frustrated enough that I'm doing a 9 day cycle of my husbands Isagenix that he didn't quite finish. 2 day cleanse, 5 shake days (2 shakes, 1 meal) and 2 cleanse day. I needed to do something. Things seem to be moving, but I guess that will happen when you don't eat for 2 days (well I did have some nuts and hard boiled eggs) but I think it's what I and my body needed to get a shift going. Now that I'm on 'shake' days I will make sure I am eating my 26 pts. I come quite close to it with their program but just need to make sure I have some of the suggested 'nuts' for snacks. We all know those rack up the points. I think maybe I was eating too many treats (chocolate) with my points and maybe needed to cut back on eating flex points and activity points. So we'll see how things go!

So I'm on a 16 week count down to my cruise. I figure I could do a minimum of 16lbs lost (209lbs) to a max. of 32lbs lost (189lbs) THAT number seems insane to me that I could be that low by end of Oct. but that is only calculating a 2lbs WL per week. Honestly I seem to average out at 1.5lbs per week which would be 24lbs down (201lbs). So enough analyzing what I COULD do and just start doing!!

I'm back to the gym tomorrow, I hope to be back running my 3M but I haven't been able the past couple times (Thur. and Sat.) but will be there all the same!

Mad

2008-07-04T13:36:00.001-06:00

I can't tell you how stink'n MAD I am about ALWAYS seeing either 227 something or 228 something. Like for the past freak'n 2-3months. I'm tired of it TIRED I SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Talk About Some Up's and Downs!

2008-07-03T19:14:00.002-06:00

So not sure how posting gets away from me.. but it does and I'm sorry... I keep thinking about blogging... "oh I should post about this...or that".

Well the first thing was that on July 1st (Canada Day, yah Canada) I weighed in at 224.6lbs!! That was 40.2 down (yes you may recall I posted this accomplishment a few weeks ago, but the weight did not stay off). So I was super pumped. The good think also was that I felt 224.6lbs meaning I finally felt a tiny bit slimmer than I had in a while...so that was all good and fine till my BBQ that night. Now I didn't go hog wild, but I defiantly wasn't couting points. I knew I'd be up but 5bls come ON!! and day 2 of 229 is not making me happy. It seems like I touch in the #'s i'd like to be, then back up to these stink'n high 220's. It's PISSING ME OFF!!!

I missed 2 days at the gym (1st and 2nd) and got back on the wagon today, though it was a struggle and I could not run the 3miles that I had been doing, but all the same I went to the gym and I left sweaty, yah me.

So my Mom said (after I asked) that she would watch the kiddo's in Oct. for hubby and I to go on a CRUISE!!! I have been needing a vacation for awhile; I loooove traveling and haven't been away since Jan 07. (I know it's not that long ago). So we are looking at a 4 day Bahamas cruise out of Miami. I get so excited just thinking about it. Anybody cruise before? Hubby's been on 1 and I haven't' been before. We are just doing a shorter one as it's our first time leaving the kids and for us to fly to Miami is a good day's travel so it's a 6-7 day trip. Any parent knows that even 1 day away is rejuvenating in it's self so 4 will be magical! It's also the week before our 6 year anniversary so we'll tie that in too! So another reason to stick with the program, even thru my frustration!!

Sunday Night Check In

2008-06-29T21:53:00.002-06:00

So as requested (by Colette) i'm posting..

So things have been pretty good since switching to 26pts. It's funny you wouldn't think going down only 2pts would make a difference (on your food intake) but I find myself cutting out one extra treat a day to make sure I don't do nuts with my points. I think my weight is shifting a bit, but today was the first morning of a little bit lower # (226.0) so we'll see what Mr. scale has to say tomorrow morning.

On the exersize front it's been going good! Last week I ran a total of 9miles and walked for 50min. When dh came home sat I insisted on me being able to go to the gym. This was at supper time, if you are like me my energy levels just get lower and lower as the day goes on... so I was not super pumped to go, but I also don't want to go 2 days in a row with out working out.. so I made myself and of course felt great afterwards. I ran 3miles in 40min. No record but I sweated a ton and felt good and it's been YEARS since i've been able to run no-stop that long. I earn 10-12 Ap's each run, which really is ALOT! Now the effort will be to find a sitter for tomorrow so I can go..the child care is cloesed as we have a holiday on the 1st (Canada Day, yay Canada!) so alot of buisnesses just close for the monday too... hubby's working so not sure if I will get a work out in or not...Also we are having a Canada DAy BBQ so I want to do as much as I can tomorrow so the 1st isn't too hecktic... but we'll see.

And my last thought... I had a NSV today, someone FINALLY noticed I've been losing weight. Serioulsy this is the first comment since starting last June! But it felt nice none the same!

(i'm too tired to spell check; sorry)

I'm making a Corporate Decision

2008-06-27T08:10:00.003-06:00

So my corporate decision is that I am going down to 26pts. I've been at 28pts for FOREVER ( I looked back 7months i've been at 28pts) and I 'm hovering around these 226-229 range (normaly you go down to 26pts at 225lbs) with dips either way. I will try it for a week and see what gives. I also want to note that I am kicking it up a notch at the gym and will be eating most if not all of my AP's (yesterday I earned 11-12pts) and I tend to eat most of my FP so I don't think I will be lacking points but I feel like there has to be a 'shift' somewhere.

I looked back and I started (again) back on track May 25th weighing in at 232.4 and now, 5 weeks later I am 227.2 so that is about 1 pound a week. Which I guess is respectable, but I would have (hoped) thought that with my exercising it would be more. I would hope for a 1% loss each week, which would be at least 2lbs at my present weight.

So on the exercise note, I am loving running and yesterday I ran 3miles! I did it in around 40min and I also did a 5min warm up and 5min cool down so on the treadmil for 50min. Boy was I sweating! I have a mini schedule I'm going to follow/work up to during the summer and if I do good and feel good about it I might have bigger plans come the fall!!!

Hail to Becky... oh Thou Wise Woman

2008-06-24T15:08:00.002-06:00

So Becky was right.... I just had to wait out those nasty hormones, drink my water and my weight would magically settle to where it was...

I was 226.8 today.. I had seen 225's before AF but I suspect in the next few days I'll be back there. It just perturbs me I have to basically write off an entire week of potential weight loss to stupid AF. She serves me no purpose, yet I'm forced to put up with her and her antics each month. Phewy on her...

On the exercise note, I am hitting my stride at the gym again; 2 days so far this week (Mon + Tues) and today I ran for 45min! Yup! Well 5min walking warm up, run 35min straight, walk 5min cool down. It felt great, and really wasn't much of a strain. I only started breathing thru my mouth the last 5min when I kicked up the rpm's! I'm feeling pretty good and might poke around at races next spring and see what I might feel up to; either 10k, 1/2 marathon or full. Heck I bet I could do a 10k sometime this fall... well see.

????

2008-06-22T16:29:00.002-06:00

So I'm perplexed... I'm back up to 229 point what ever. Ya I just finished AF but by now I'm usually super low for 3-4 days..but I'm high, high, HIGH right now. I've been OP with one day off (and not super bad eating) water intake has been not 100% but not horrible. I'm wondering if I need to drop to 26pts (WW says at 225lbs to drop from 28 pts to 26pts) 'cause really I've been floating around these #'s for FOR-EVER! What does the peanut gallery think? For the rest of this week (till Friday) I'm only eating daily points and activity points, no flex points. I need to see #'s move and STAY gone!

insert witty title here...

2008-06-17T13:22:00.004-06:00

So I've been sorta MIA only because, well I've been busy! I'm still totally on plan, exercising -yes I drag 2 toddlers and a newborn to the gym to work out. I laugh at myself because by the time I get everyone organized and in the van, I have broken a sweat (really!!) and I think I don''t need to go to the gym I just need to go somewhere everyday :). It really does feel great to work out. I'm not doing anything too major right now, just walking around the track for 45+min but I sweat and can feel it a bit. Soon I think I'll start leaving the baby too with child care and do the treadmill/bike that I use to do. I want to get back in to running, I WAS at running for 30min before baby, but alas...I fell off that wagon sort of abruptly.

Also this week is AF week..so I haven't been to crazy about the scale. I think that is the reason for the fluctuation between the 225's and 228's. I'll just have to wait till miss thang leaves and I will have the true verdict. (I'm also the ultimate lowest right after AF).

Up.....WAYYYYYY up

2008-06-15T07:51:00.002-06:00

So I think that day was just a fluke as I haven't seen a number that good in a couple days. Yesterday 227.4 today 228.8. I think today's WI is a direct result of yesterdays filling my face non-stop with chocolate and bread sticks. Did I mention AF will probably be officially arriving today? So that explains it but does not excuse it.

We'll just have to wait till AF is pretty much done and see what the scale says. 2 days in to this 'week' and I'm 14-18points in to my FP...Yikes! I have full intentions on going to the gym tomorrow. I will do my very best today... I think I just need to go upstairs and throw out the rest of the bread sticks I made yesterday (It was raining, I HAD to bake.. I thought I'd be safe with bread sticks, ummm NO)

McDonald's = Weightloss????

2008-06-13T07:27:00.003-06:00

So what's up with that eh? I almost don't believe my scale, but I got on 'er like 5 times and it was between 224.6 and 225.0, SERIOUSLY! I usually go up and do a second weighing session after my second munchkin is up... about an hour after the first; just for fun. So we'll she what #'s I get in a bit... but really??? 224.8 (I'll take the middle..) That means F O R T Y P O U N D S gone, done, lost never to be seen again! I'll do my official happy dance in a bit, after confirmation...

(PS Colette; here I come!!!)

Edited to add: ok so it's been an hour and I went back up to weight and I was 225.0 to 225.6...so didn't dip in the 224's so I will go with an official WI as 225.0...lets see what happens tomorrow!

Whyyyyyyy (as the song goes)

2008-06-12T14:08:00.002-06:00

So I had my lowest WI today in a while, 227.0 and what do I have for lunch???? McDonald's... Why do I do that? I just don't know. Really it was 14 pts which I consider high-ish, but not insane because a) it was a lunch meal so if I go light on diner, not so bad right? b) I still have 7pts left which is acceptable. c) I do have 28pts to eat in a day...
I know crappy justification, but that's how I have it worked out. Why do I love it so much? Plus all that sodium alone I'm sure will bump me up a pound or 2. What ever.

I'm 2.2 away from the 40 mark, my 'half way' is anywhere from 40-45lbs... so getting close to that too. (If I can stay away from Micky D's)

Yawwwwn

2008-06-12T06:57:00.002-06:00

So I'm up kinda early, can't really sleep in these days. My body must be getting use to minimal sleep. So I was kinda bummed because I couldn't get a hold of our boot camp guy and my insecurities got the best of me and I was thinking he didn't want some overweight housewife doing his camp and possibly pulling down his image... I guess it turns out he had to go home for the week due to a family emergency, so boot camp was canceled this week. So I feel a bit better about this. I'm actually looking forward to doing it on a regular bases. Mostly because it's such a kick a#s work out I know it will help in my weight loss.

Hmmm what else can I tell ya all??? I don't think my brain functions too well yet so we'll leave it at that.

Sodium

2008-06-11T07:43:00.002-06:00

So this stuff is everywhere it seems. I watch it now, well look to see how much is in the food I eat and I am SHOCKED! I think it would be harder to be on a low sodium diet than on a low fat diet, seriously. I live on WW meals for lunch... those are high, so last week I thought hmm I'll just have a nice big salad, with feta, I love feta. I put 3 servings on as it was really the only thing counting on my salad...well at over 500mg of sodium PER SERVING I ate over 1500mg of sodium on my salad, just about double a WW meal. Geesh.
Really the only way to say away from this stuff is to eat clean. No processed foods ect, just foods in their natural state. But that's rarely possible in my household. I'm all about fast and convience. But I also know my body defiantly reacts to sodium... what's a girl to do?

Anyways that is my sodium vent....

Hubby's been busy!

2008-06-11T07:38:00.004-06:00

So hubby built my pergola on his days off! and we got the gravel all spread and he built the kids a sand box! I'm so excited! I just have to lay patio stones for the "floor" of the pergola and I bought some fabric to add some drapes to it. I'm so excited for my yard to be done and the way I've envisioned it. The girls love playing outside and now I'll enjoy being out there too! Yaaa hubby.

one handed post

2008-06-10T08:50:00.002-06:00

So this is a one handed pot while I feed the boy. I finally dropped a few pounds....i'm surprized I didn't drop it right after the bootcamp but I think my body was retaining as I was drinking and drinking but hardley peeing...
I was 228.8 so a total of 36lbs down. So close to the 40lb mark! More later when I have 2 hands free!

I got my A$$ kicked today

2008-06-06T15:36:00.002-06:00

Ok folks, I got a good old fashion butt kicking at the gym today. I say yesterday at the gym a sign for 'Boot Camp'; you can sign up for 2x, 3x, 4x, or 4x a week and they offer several different times thru out the day. I thought hmm maybe this is what I need. So I went for a freebie session this morning... holy crap!

I was sweating and thinking what the crap from about the first 5min. We did good old fashions stadium stairs, with ankle weights ALSO holding a 5lb weight, we also ran the main stairs at the gym, then we did a circuit type thing on the track including but not limited to: skipping, lunges, these side to side things, all types of ab's, push ups, jumping jacks, resistance running and so on. I think this is the closest I've come to vomiting while working out. I haven't had a work out like this since my kickboxing days. When I got back to my van, I was like where am I? Do I have kids? Where are my kids? What planet am I on? I seriously thought of nothing while working out except survival!

So did I sign up? Some what hesitantly, but I did, this will get my butt in shape in 1/2 the time I'm sure! (but only 2x a week, I'm not insane!)

I figured I earned 9AP's today, and I feel like I E-A-R-N-E-D every single one! We'll see if I can walk tomorrow....

35.2

2008-06-05T15:40:00.002-06:00

No, i'm not 35 years old and 2 days...I'm down 35.2 lbs since starting WW (june 2007). And I'm in the "Twenties" woot woot.
Sorry on the short side, but nap times over...on to the diner rush...

Reflecting on My Last Year

2008-06-04T10:24:00.002-06:00

So since it's my one year anniversary from starting WW last June. I remember feeling so fat (as much as I hate that word) last year as we were at the in laws for a mini family reunion and we did pics. Well when I saw the pics that night...uhhhggg. I seriously was disgusted. I knew my weight was scary close to 265... and realizing I was defiantly closer to 300 than to 200 made me get my butt in gear. Of course I'm no where near where I thought I'd be, heck I could have been at goal if it wasn't such a busy/changing year. But really to be down anything from last year is great, and I just need to stick with it. It's not like I'm heavier than I was last year! I know I had *really* wanted to run a marathon or some race at the least for my 35th b-day. But being diagnosed (after severe back pain) with 2 herniated disks... I new that dream was quickly fading. I've now set a goal to run a marathon by my 40th (in 5 years) I have always wanted to do this and I know I will. But I have to realize being where I am right now, it's not a super fast attainable goal. In 5 years all my kids should be in school and with in 2years they'll start going so I'll (hopefully) regain some personal time. That's really my main goal. Of course to be skinny, look hot and wear what ever I want is up there too.

Really when I look back at the challenges I've had this past year I feel pretty good about any loss and sustained loss! Back problems,selling a 2nd property, toddler adoption, pins and needles about possible 3rd adoption, infant adoption, LACK OF SLEEP, 3 kids 3 and under (2 home with in 6m of each other), a hubby who works alot... ahhh I could go on and on... but that's life eh? We can't and won't ever have just a perfect time conducive to weight loss where everything is peachy keen and roses. There will always be something going on, challenging us and making us think "i deserve a treat". There's aways a reason to not make right choices, but there also is always reasons too make healthy choices. We just have to focus on the right reasons.

So a current goal of mine is to be wedding weight by my 6y anniversary (Nov. 1st) wedding weight was 195lbs. Really I look at my photos and think dam, if I could look like that again I'd be loving it! (but goal really is 174 (healthy BMI). I just also found out that my grandma is getting married again (2nd) and it's early Sept. so of course that is motivation through out the summer... I like have a 2-3m event/goal thing to look forward to. Better than just always looking long long term. If I do the math, there isn't any reason not to be at goal for the new year...but I'm not officially setting that goal yet...

Ok so this has been sort of a long winded post... off to be a Mom...

Becuase DC+Z is a perv and asked to see me in a swimsuit....

2008-06-03T13:19:00.007-06:00

Mothers Day 2007 (about 2 weeks before starting WW)

June 2nd 2008 (34lbs down)

Current back June 2008

Jan 2008 back (20lbs ago)

Jan 2008 front

June 2008 front (20lbs lighter)

Tips from Tallmama...

2008-06-02T20:47:00.004-06:00

So I had a (I thought) brilliant idea tonight. We had about 4 bananas getting too ripe. Usually I throw them in the freezer for banana bread, which we know is not the best thing to make...exp. if you are weak to the baked goods like I am (and someone else I know...). So I thought hmmm lately I've loved my banana strawberry smoothies... so I chunked them up and froze them smoothie ready! I think they are going to work great!

a side note...I was going to post some before and after pics...but there really isn't a huge difference! The before pics are only from Jan/08, my lovley swimsuit shots...and I'm down *almost* 20 since then, so not a huge amount...